Tanah Tumpahnya Darahku

What more can I say? I am really proud of our national team. Two decades and we're finally finding our form, we're finally winning trophies.

These posters are old but these were the ones that gave me chills yo!

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Push.... Erase....

Awww, I remember those pictures!

Wait, who's that?

Who? Him? Fuck If I Know

Yea Who Cares

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Less & Less

I don’t want to go back to college; I don’t want to see them.

I shouldn’t feel soo hurt about this, but I am. And I can’t help it. We are “family” apparently.

I can never hold down a friend. I don’t blame them; I blame me. It always the same story; things goes well, drama here, drama there we get close then something like this happens and I somehow overreact.

I don’t know if I expect too much or too little from them but it ends up the same way. The list goes on regard all the people whom had this “friendship” with me.

The more I think bout it the more I want to see them less.

First day at Chapman’s bar. Boring as hell but have some good companions there; Alvin & Agnes.

Just wanted to get this off my chest.

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Hey, It's Just Fucking Navin

I feel upset, I feel angry and frankly I don’t have anyone who understands me. Remon made a good point earlier regarding the issue at hand. But I guess what everyone fails to understand is I have feeling too. Apparently I don’t have any. I’m just a inconsiderate bastard who disregards everyone else’s feelings.

I hate that feeling, that burning feeling in the chest. Just thinking more about it the more you have the feeling. I try to take a deep breath and try to “cool” myself.

When I hurt you, I apologized once I knew my mistake. Heck, I even felt guilty. I apologized and you just pretended like as if I didn’t. All of you did that. It really hurts. I was being sincere. Feels like you lied when you said you “care”; it doesn’t seem like you care now. Doesn’t seem like you ever cared

It’s like I’m a piece of garbage. An unimportant person. An expandable product. A expandable person.

“What Navin is upset?”

“Fuck, if I care, I mean it’s Navin; we all know how he is”

Remon made some sense, I agree, call me stubborn but I don’t want to pretend like nothing has happened. Would a rapist stop his deeds if he was just let off with a warning? They get whipped in jail and pretty much learn their lesson.

Remon told me to forget about it; I can’t. I give the I don’t care attitude but things like this I do care. I just guess some people are just too proud huh? I guess I’m an idiot with the attitude I have too huh?

Sorry Remon but I am staying put…

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Front Office

Yes it's been ages yet again. Partly coz I'm lazy and due to down age of internet. So finally back to blogging;

So am still loving it at the front office. I am seriously considering majoring in front office later on.

I really had fun with some of my guest. I mean really had fun. For example

Mr. Ivan & Ms. Penny;

I have to say I really enjoy this couple. They were soo friendly and pretty much always in the mood to talk. My point of view with the front office it's hard to find easy to talk to guests like them. What was really an ice breaker was teaching them how to use their brand spanking new DSLR.

Reason for the DSLR is because Ms. Penny is expecting a little one soon. DSLR + baby = really nice pictures.

Miss them, due to the fact I havent found any other guest I can talk to like I talked to them.

Ms. Asther, Family & Friends;

My first guest with I had a relationship with. All thanks to Casey for assigning me to them. It was a lot of work but I really enjoyed the work. Helping them in any way I could.

I just felt somewhat helpless as I couldnt help Mr. Francis look for his beloved G9. I googled it and damn its a nice camera. Soo old school.

This is baby Haley; Mr Francis & Ms Asther's lil' bundle of joy

Ms Sarah & Mr Matthew;

I still remember Mr Matt saying to me;

if you're ever down at UK, gimme a ring, you ain't staying at no hotel, you're stayin with us. And if you don't I'll hunt you down

Australians who live at UK. He's a City supporter... Ergh.

Lastly, my Front office manager, Mr Shahrul, he left PLR yesterday to work for Airasia. Awesome guy, I never actually shed a tear for someone in the industry before this. Only worked under him for less than a month but he meant alot. He didn't act like a manager.

He acted like a friend, brother, father & a teacher.

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UPDATING

UPDATING LATER AT NIGHT...

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Where'd You Go?

I can honestly say, I'm enjoying my stint at the front office. I love just meeting the guest and talking to them. I can say my calling is at front office. NOT housekeeping.

I just need to brush up my social skills abit more. I realised I stutter, choke and mumble when I dont feel comfortable talking to the guest, or feel like I'm talking to a wall.

What's wrong?

What's bugging you?

Everything is good, but you still dont seem happy

Are you alright?

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The L Feeling

It was a bad joke. Well it didn't feel like it when I was scheming it.

Am I supposed to feel bad?

Apparently I'm an attention seeker. Frankly, I'm not going to deny or admit to it. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. Heck that's why I have my blog. Whatever, I first gave a shit when it hit the fan but now I couldn't give a fuck what anyone thinks of it and of me.

This picture. It's the cover of Thom Yorke's solo album, The Eraser. Only recently have I understood the picture. Well, my understanding. The Eraser is like anyone else, the waves represent life. Life doesn't in little amounts. It comes just as the picture shows. That's my understanding.

First day of front office. It went much better than I expected it to be. I think I'm going to really enjoy my last month here.

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Railings & Drains

Just when I thought things are gonna get better here, someone takes a frying pan and smacks me in the face.


Yesterday after getting to play futsal for the first time on the resort and after dinner; Leon and I forgot our keys. So I went over to Fisherman's Cove got the key from Remon and headed back.

Just as I reached the quarters I felt my left leg on air. Next thing I knew, I fell into a drain. One leg in one leg out. I would have broken the damn leg if I didnt use my hands to stop me from falling forward.

Screamed for help as I got out, Leon came immediately. I still remember the pain, the unbearable burning pain. Nick, Ho Kun, Ivan and Leon carried me to the chair outside the quarters. As they cleaned the would the pain was getting more and more unbearable. I just felt like dying.


Today, after a check up by a specialist and an xray, apparently I suffered from a minor hair-line fracture from the fall. Man it sucks to be me.


Painkillers are kicking in. I want to sleep. Nights

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Funky Dreams

It's not once but quite a number of times; I've been having some really interesting dreams while here at Pangkor.

Interesting yet, hard to remember. I'm only able to remember fragments of it and from that I can just add up how peculiar the dream is.


Some had me talking to people I don't know but in somewhat in the resort background, not talking about anything, but something really important. It seemed important. There must be a hidden meaning to it. I just wonder what it is.


Most recent one I had is in the afternoon; I took a nap and dreamt that my parents and my younger brother were here on the resort and were about to head out to the Emerald Bay. After sending them off, I could see a tornado heading to the resort from the main island. Tried calling my parents but my phone was somehow in pieces.


Later on the dream felt like real because I was in the resort but leaning on my dad's Volvo. I'm wondering to myself how the heck did the car get here. Yes, I was thinking in my sleep. I mean really thinking logically.

It's a first time for me because I realised that when I start thinking logically in my sleep, the situation, layout and are suddenly change and I cant remember what I'm thinking about.


From what I can conclude, the part about family in my dreams could be due to homesickness. Funny, I don't feel homesick. I remember having dreams like that when I went for National Service.


As for the dreams getting more and more funkier; I think it's the power naps I'm taking

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A Man With A Fork, In A World Of Soup

Nuff Said

Came across this really funny data sheet that day... No offence ladies

Gonna go read a book.




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It's All Relative, It's All Understood

Well, I'm going back to my roots on this one.


This is mainly for my mum

Recently my mum asked me to pick a laptop on the Dell website. Being me, when my parents ask me to choose what I want when they pay for it, I always pick the cheapest thing.


I feel we come from a lower middle class family and I hate to be a burden to my parents. Especially to my mum. She works hard and never complains. Okay maybe a few times on how we don't help out with the chores, but she's entitled to that.


So about the laptop, I picked a cheap one and she told me to get a better one as it would be good for the long run. I don't know but I just feel guilty about it. A part of me wanted to tell her that I don't need it if she needed to fork out the amount that was needed for the better model.


Since my early teenage life, I know my parents have it hard and I try to ease their burden by getting a part time job during my holidays to pay for my daily needs. I just hate the I idea that I have to be a burden to my parents. I feel bad, I feel guilty.


Yes there are times I have misunderstandings with them, especially my mum. All this while we'd get into a heated exchange of words. It's only recently I realised that how much she's done for the three of us.


My sister and her University fees, plane tickets, allowance and her usual needs. I feel she cant seem to understand the situation that she's putting mum and dad in.

My brother, the somewhat spoilt on in the family. He too does not realise the burden he's giving them.


My parents too play a part in this. I noticed, we would want something, if it's really not necessary they'd say no. But we'd somehow make them feel guilty about not getting it for us and they ending working hard just so we're happy.


Very self centred of us isn't it. I somehow hate myself for all the burdens I've given my parents... Especially you Amma


I'm Sorry & I Love You

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Frustration

Really... What else is there?

It's like you just clear up the first mess and suddenly there is another and it's a hurtful one.

Work wise everything is good, I can say I'm enjoying other than the fact that I have one EVERY tough house keeping manager.

Miss, HR told me to ask you for leave of absence because my room was attacked by monkeys. They expect us to clean it

*gives a wtf look*

What you talking? Now you are on duty, please worry about your personal issues after your work... now go back to work!

Me, Her

Mind you someone forgot to close the window in our room which resulted in monkey mayhem. Shit, Food And Shit EVERYWHERE.

Freaking took me like 5 hours to clean up and wash ALL my clothes.

Am just frustrated with you. I don't know what you want. I adhered to all your rules for the room. I heard that you said that you have "problems" with your roommates. Please do enlighten me. Yes we have differences but running away to another room isn't gonna solve your fucking problems.

I'm not mad at you for changing room, I'm mad at you for not fucking telling me.

Thanks Remon

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Pangkor Laut Resort

Yes, I've been really really late on the posting up on the post... hehe.

It's been close to two weeks and well so far, things have been good. Doing housekeeping first and at first I thought, "crap, I'm gonna hate it and stuff"

But apparently things have been good. No complaints on work really.

People have changed, some became arrogant, some have distant themselves and rest have remained being themselves, idiots.

So far enjoying it here.... that's all for now, will post up soon

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What's Up With That?

Been actually studying lately and mind you I've actually learned some things and find certain subjects easier.


I'm not talking about anyone in particular, it's just me thinking out, why are people sensitive? I've changed myself to adapt to sensitive people, not to get on their bad side. But in spite of that, there seems to be more nonsense popping up.


I somewhat feel upset about Remon's case. Not upset for him but at him. I think I've told you before, bro; just tell me.


But lately, you too have changed, reason why I don't ask you is because you shrug off my question and say you are okay. Mon, you are not a good liar.


I guess its the season where everyone is disappointing one another eh?


I know I'm disappointed with Aiman.


You are too thick headed, persistent and stupid. Missing practical classes? Really dude?

Honestly, I wont be surprised if I don't see you in class next term

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Soo Close Yet Soo Far

I'm soo not in the mood for college later. I mean After going through the wonder called Pangkor Island Resort.


Went there for a day for my interview. Will blog more about it tomorrow as I can't seem to upload pictures into the blogger thingy.

So finally the holidays are coming to an end and I'm going back to college. Yay college =.=



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Opening Up

This is gonna be an interesting post. I'm gonna talk bout me feelings.

Old ones to be exact.


So was talking to an old crush recently, after talking to her I went to sleep as it was late. As I laid on my pillow, I was thinking of that past. Thinking about her.


Since kindergarten, I had a crush on her, but frankly, I didn't know what was a crush and I was like "eww girls!"

I was WAY too shy to talk to her, that and all my friends would have teased me if I did so. I always saw her, I can't remember who she would hang out with. But I realized that every time I see her, I looked at her, she always had a smile on her face. She just had one of those cheerful faces. A face that could just light up your day.



It was like a secret crush. I never admitted it to anyone, a secret I kept till now I guess.


I remember when I was 10; it was the end of the year and I was going to my new class for next year. Looked at the name list like everyone else. Saw my name and started looking for my friends names and I stumbled upon her name. I think my heart skipped.


I was actually looking forward to talking to her. Actually saying something to her. Heck, I don't think she's ever said my name.

January 3rd 2002, I went to class. I picked my seat, sat beside another buddy. I waited for her, waited. But she never came. I didn't think much of it. I just thought she's still in a holiday mood or still in a holiday or worst, she's feeling under the weather.

One week passed and I couldn't wait. I and to one of her friends and asked. She had moved, migrated to a different country. My heart sank.



Back to the future


Here we are. I totally forgotten bout her till my friend showed me her Facebook profile. I hesitated to request a friend request thingy. Lot of things ran through my head;

Does she remember me?
Would she think I'm some stalker?
SHE HAS NEVER SPOKEN TO ME AND YOU WANT TO ADD HER AS A FRIEND? BRILLIANT!

I did, she accepted. We spoke, that's that.


If you know who she is, please do me a favor and keep it to yourself, please don't say who or point fingers at the chatbox. If you are really curious, MSN or Facebook or something

A Random Picture I Came Across While Googling Crush

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Still Wondering

I don't know why, but I really wish I had some kind of disorder. I mean it would make my life soo much more interesting.



Came back from service. I puked out what I ate, brilliant. I had a feeling the chicken wasn't cooked properly. By puking it proved to be so.


I'm just looking forward to Pangkor, seriously I haven't even gone for the freaking interview and I'm planning everything already. Relatives said Pangkor Island Resort is quite dead and its just for relaxation. Heck after August all I want to do is relax.


Gimme a guitar, bottle of scotch, a futsal ball, my sketch pad and my MP3 player. I will be soo dayum happy.


I have no idea why I'm blogging. I'm bored


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Got You A Brand New Heaven

Two hours to burn till dinner service. I'm Mani's guest. Bored so what do I do? Go to the library and sit infront of the computer.

I'm just soo bloody hooked on to Jack Johnson's Symbols In My Driveway. It's like the BEST song to listen to when you need to chill. Seriously I mean its the best song!

So went to youtube to try and learn the song and failed miserablely.... I can't find a single version that makes it easy to see what they are playing. But found how to play Gone and Flake... Come on holidays! Waiting for you. I know what I'm gonna be doing then


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I Hate Jams, But Peanut Butter & Jam Is Okay

I 've leaving college early, I love avoiding the Taylors jam, the jam we have within the college itself...

But after that, on the Federal highway, you just get sucked in to this sea of cars. And you are only gonna get out of it two hours later.

Yesterday that's exactly what happened. I usually turn out at PJ and avoid the whole jam at Federal highway but on this Friday, the jam was seriously bad. I turn into PJ to be stuck at another jam. Took a turn into the industrial area. Got stuck there in another jam.

I said to myself

screw it. I can't avoid it

I parked the car at the side of the road, I put down the windows abit and turned of the engine. Moved to the passenger's seat and took at nap. Put my alarm for 8pm when the roads will be clear due to everyone breaking fast. Worked like a charm. Next time, I'm just gonna stay in college till 8pm.

Something is missing, I dont know what, but it just is

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Mediocre Bad Guys

I love sports. Why the major affection towards sports? As you all know with all the crap happening to me and stress build up only three things calm me down.

1. Guitar (till a certain point I get sick of it because I'm not improving)
2. "Calm Me Down" Playlist (nothing but Jack Johnson's Best)
3. Sports


In the noon I was really stressed, breathing heavily (abit I realised when I'm stressed) and cursing to kingdom come. But from 7.30pm till 10.30pm everything disappeared. I felt soo relaxed. I didnt feel an ounce of stress and I wasn't thinking about any worries in the world.


Sports


Futsal and basketball, you can never get me to stop. It's my weed.

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Black Swan

I'm not sure how I put up with all of this. If I was put in this situation say 3 or 4 years back, I'd just shoot myself. I'm still wondering, what is keeping me going?


August has just gone and it's been 2 hours and 50 minutes into September. I'm really looking forward to industrial training right about now. I really want to go to Pangkor and be lost in my thoughts.

I've given up on France. I feel like it was a cruel joke the college played on us. Just fucking tell us earlier that it's only for F&B and Kitchen instead of us finding out much later. Lecturer says there is still a possibility for me to go. *sigh* With all the great luck I have right now, I really doubt that is even possible.


I guess these two words are keeping me going everday as I wake up;

Hope & Believe

Yea, interesting words for a guy who gave up hope and believe on almost everything and everyone.



Still waiting for the Sun to rise

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Times Like These

With the way how things are going, I just want to hide away. There is way too much shit on my plate.

The usual amount of bad luck I get in one year has been crammed and blown straight to my face in the likes of August. I feel really tired. Sleeping never helps, I'm in trouble in one way or another.


I need a hand. I need help. I need someone, anyone.


I'm way over my head. First thing to do is to take care of this little problem. If what he says is correct and she made it formal, I am fucked. Can you blame me? I didn't sleep for 2 days because of that damn assignment and at the brink of tears because I felt soo useless, I just couldn't figure out how to get rid of the bugs in the video.


Arika and Mani helped but I was really upset. Tears were there, I tried hard to hide them. You give me this choice, fail one or fail 5. I was mad, all I asked for was 2 minutes. Go up, pass the files and come back down. You didn't give.


Somehow I'm the bad guy in all this huh?

Got A Light Bulb Full Of Anger
And I Can Switch It On And Off
Situations It Can Be So Bright, I Can't Believe
How Pathetic I Can Be 

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Symbol In My Driveway

I've been meaning to update, I really have been but I haven't had the time to do so. I'm just making a quick blog to prove this blog aint dead. Will blog in a few hours time. I need to mend my ankles


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Black 13

So for Malaysian Studies I did some last minute work for our assignment, May 13th 1969. Yes, not many know of this day. Not many were old enough to remember or elders just dont tell us as they are scared we're repeat our mistakes. But isn't history full of mistakes? We read about these mistakes so we dont repeat these mistakes. Anyhu... Here are some personal points of view during May 13th.


I was deeply touched by all of them. Believe it or not, I was in tears just by reading them.




I was then a nine-year-old son of an FRU policeman. We lived at the Police Depot at Jalan Gurney, Kuala Lumpur.
Even at my age then, it was clear to me that larger forces were at work in this terrible incident.

From our house in the Depot, we saw fires burning on the first two nights in the Batu Road (Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman) area – proof for me that the Chinese were attacked first. It was only on the third night when the fires appeared in a different part of the sky – over the Datuk Keramat and Kampung Baru areas.

Anyway, as we grew up, this subject came up many times and it was always clear to most people I met that the Chinese were attacked first.

I was also witness to another phenomenon that backs up an observation in the documents.

Around May 13, the older sons of many of my Malay neighbours were not be seen and they only returned days later. It was all hush-hush but their younger brothers told me that they were asked to assemble at residence of Harun Idris. From the way they behaved when they returned, I was led to believe that they had participated in the riots.

My father spoke harshly of the soldiers too. When the FRU men were sent out, many of the areas they went to had earlier been visited by the soldiers and the residents (or what were left of them) tearfully told stories of how the soldiers joined the Malays in attacking them.

Friends I met years later in Malacca also told me that soldiers had fired into shophouses in Jalan Bunga Raya for no reason. I have heard lots of other anecdotes too. Many Malaysians would have been personally affected by this tragedy. Maybe this would a good time for them to come forward and share their recollections.

The publication of these truths is long overdue. I hope it will lead to the different races of this country becoming more aware of how they are being manipulated to keep a select group of people in power.

So many innocent people died during those tragic days just so that power remained in the hands of the perpetrators. Datuk Harun (and I always believed this was due to divine retribution) never led a happy life after that incident. That fact is well-documented. I’m sure God would have punished the others too, whoever they are.

Another One


I was in class ( Form Six ) at a school in PJ, BBBS in Section 14. Totally oblivious of what was happening. This was then called FEC or Further Education School. Not one of us knew what was just about happening.

After class, I walked with my sisters, as usual, to the bust depot, about a 10-minute walk. That was when things didn’t seem right. There were no buses there. But we, along with others, waited, not long though. Nightfall was approaching.

It was the weirdest feeling I had ever felt …. All very quiet. No buses, then I realized there were no cars on the roads too!

Then the first bus came …. And as far as I can remember, the only noise was the sound of the bus.

We saw the passengers in the bus …. All with blood, some on their faces. To this day I can still picture a Chinese woman, in her 40s I believe, in the bus, holding some kind of a cloth on her face. Her face was covered with blood and all of them were rushing out of the bus.

We still did not know what the heck was happening. Then the passengers told us … still not knowing it was a racial clash between the Malays and the Chinese.

All innocent people in vehicles coming from Bangsar to PJ ….. no chance for them …. As they were stopped by the Kampung Kerenchi mob. Some who knew just zoomed past. Others were all slaughtered. One pregnant woman was massacred. No one was spared by these angry mob.

Kampung Kerenchi was like 10 minutes away from the bus depot. I don’t know how that bus went past but windows were smashed and people in it were hurt . I guess the driver rammed through the mob, only way to get past.

You could not escape going through the Federal Highway without passing and facing the wrath of the inhabitants of Kampung Kerenchi.

It took us all quite a while to realize what exactly was happening. It was a horrible sight. My sisters were there and we had no transport …. The mob may arrive …. All kinds of thoughts raced across my mind. I told my sisters to wait in a hidden place while I ran …. non-stop ( about 4-5 miles ) back home to tell and ask my father to pick them up.

I will never forget that run. As I ran, I started looking everywhere, behind, sideways, in front, to see if there was a mob of any kind.

We didn’t have the luxury of owning a cell phone then.

I managed to reach home and my father drove immediately to the place with me, to pick up my sisters. I thank God all of us were safe.

I think it was a couple of days later when a Curfew was imposed. Shops closed. Then after a few days, the curfew was lifted for an hour for all to get provisions.

I was living in Jalan Gasing at that time. Imagine, curfew and some of us got together and sneaked to another friend’s place, across the road …. Just to play gin rummy! We went there commando style. Heard and saw an army truck ( with orders to shoot to kill ), ducked amongst the lalang and crept to the house and we did the same thing returning home!

What I wrote is a summary. What is more important is, I too, as everyone else do not know who started it all.

Some would say, the idiots in politics.


Lastly



I was teaching in the Klang valley at the time, and was returning home after a badminton game when I saw the Tunku wept on TV. My heart went out to him. I noticed the tearful eyes of my roommate, a teacher from Kedah.

Some local gangsters came to our house to advise us to be ready with any weapon we could find, such as iron pipes. We were to signal any attack by beating pots and pans. That night I heard the security forces shouting at someone at the end of our block, asking him to "keluar."

The next day I heard gunshots somewhere near a theater: someone with a gun was holed up in his room. He later shot himself, I think.

The Malays were also frightened: parents arrived at the urban school wanting to take their children back because of a rumor that the Chinese were going to attack their children. The HM was absent and I refused their request. So did my Chinese and Indian colleagues until the lessons were over and then, as promised, we escorted the children passed the mainly Chinese shops to the city bus station. For the first time I was scared my own people would do something stupid.

A few days later a Chinese bus driver was stabbed to death somewhere near Shah Alam. Some houses near Meru, some miles from Klang, were burned and looted.

Later, I heard my elder brother was in the KL theater that was sprayed by the army's machine guns. I heard about a New Zealand nurse raped by some kampung hot heads - wondered if they were Harun's people. Things quietened down when the troops were replaced by the Sarawak Rangers.

In the aftermath I told my largely kampung students that while the communities were attacking one another, their leaders were having durian parties. But stupid people, especially the town Chinese, were talking about boycotting the Malay durian sellers. I told the few Chinese students to realize that this was a struggle between politicians and they should not be used as pawns.


My heart went to to each and everyone of them. The suffering they went through. Now you know why I say, race & religion are unnescessary borders... They cause nothing but pain and anguish.

Palms leaves, like blades (May 13, 1969)
Curfew: from the walnut cabinet
the test pattern’s squealing note.
Tuning the wireless past that
wailing from another planet.
Sirens whooping –
polis or ambulance? –
screaming … then silence [ ]
.
Banana palms clatter, like blades.
Blades falling – a bad dreaming,
a scene from nowhere, everywhere.
Clouds, like smoke.
Monkeys, like sirens.
Palms, like blades
chopping through the air.

It's a regrettable incident... have a prayer for those who were innocent. Don't forget May 13th 1969

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

It's So Fucking Unfair

Seriously... Not even a fucking week. FUCK!! SERIOUSLY!! FUCK!! AGAIN!! I JUST FUCKING GOT IT!! IT'S ONLY FUCKING WEEK!!

Fuck Fuckedy Fuck Fuck Fuck


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

HOLY SHIT GUESS WHAT!!

HOLY SHIT FCUK!! GUESS WHAT?!

It's a Monday, college, life, boring *sigh*


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

A Conversation With Remon

Remon says:
you curse us isit??

| Navin | says:
??
why ar?
Remon says:
ohh maii~
gawdd..
eh
| Navin | says:
=.=
Remon says:
some one bang gillians car
-__-'
brb
i go mandi first
| Navin | says:
o.o
i didnt curse u
but they maybe
KARMA!!
btw
derek coming 2molo for futsal
we got MESSI!!
Remon says:
oh ham jee!! damn nice wehy~~
| Navin | says:
?
Remon says:
messi!! wee~~

| Navin | says:
oo
he said maybe
Remon says:
k la at least got hope

| Navin | says:
u saying we no hope without derek HA?
LIKE THAT LAA
DONT TRUST US!!
Remon says:
no
| Navin | says:
FINE

DONT FREN YOU!
wait
Remon says:
i'm just saying our game easy with him
| Navin | says:
be fore that
Remon says:
LOL
| Navin | says:
wht happened to gillians car
Remon says:
oh
well
some idiot in his benz
| Navin | says:
his fault or urs?
Remon says:
"tried" to cut
| Navin | says:
lol
Remon says:
end up hitting gillians
| Navin | says:
"tried"?
then?
Remon says:
yea fail
damn stupid
we pursuit him la.
but that babi guy didn't stop
| Navin | says:
take number only la

Remon says:
take alredy
| Navin | says:
so?
make report
Remon says:
picture somemore got!
LOl
yea tomorrow report
| Navin | says:
so smart chase and crash and die
=.=
Remon says:
coz KL canot
| Navin | says:
MAKE TODAY!!!
Remon says:
24 hours bah
afternoon tomorrow
| Navin | says:
JUST GET IT DONE LAA
WTFFFF
Remon says:
mani, me, gillian
| Navin | says:
mani???
Remon says:
yea
he knows the station
| Navin | says:
where it happened?
Remon says:
we all kl people noob bah
SARAVANAN
| Navin | says:
=.=
bloody hell
its near pyramid
actually right beside =.=
NOOBS!
and pls ar
u ampang and desa pandan ppl noob
ampang ppl so malas wanna go bangsar to drop friend
pfftt
desa pandan JUST noob only
=P
Remon says:
-___-'
OI~
Dp is cool ok!?
we are too cool
we can make a country out of desa pandan
| Navin | says:
pfftt
Remon says:
too pro alredy
| Navin | says:
sure
Remon says:
got McD
got Secret Recipe
got 7-11
| Navin | says:
bangsar is the most MULTI RACIAL PLACE!!
HA!
Remon says:
got speedy video
| Navin | says:
GOT
Remon says:
got KFC
| Navin | says:
WE GOT 1 mcd... 2 711
Remon says:
got Mamak
| Navin | says:
3 malls
easily 20 mamaks
2 basketball courst
Remon says:
we have one mamak every 5 seconds
| Navin | says:
3 football fields
Remon says:
we got 4 football field
| Navin | says:
2 futsal courst
tons of swimming pools
Remon says:
at north, south, east west
| Navin | says:
SAME LAAA
Remon says:
got 2 futsal court
2 badminton court
| Navin | says:
i just making u feel better by saying to 20 oni
badminton got 4
got 6 tennis courst
Remon says:
we too cool for tennis
| Navin | says:
got 2 alexis
got cool places to lepak
got nice ppl
Remon says:
we got 15 peters
| Navin | says:
got multi racial ppls
HUH?
Remon says:
we got awesome cybercafes
| Navin | says:
pfft
cybercafe for noobs who want to skip skol
Remon says:
this one too pro alredy
we got the best MILO maker in the world at Rejab
| Navin | says:
pffftt
BACKSIDE!!
BEST ONE IS TAYLORS CRISPY POPIAH!!!!
Remon says:
*points to my butt* here here
| Navin | says:
WE HAVE THE BEST VIEW OF KL SKYLINE!!
Remon says:
WE HAVE KL!!!
MUAHAhA`
| Navin | says:
pffftt
BACKSIDE!!!
U CANT LOOK AT IT AND PAK TOR!!!
Remon says:
2 minute drive to everything
| Navin | says:
SAME!!
Remon says:
CAN
| Navin | says:
BUT UR PLACE ALWAYS JAM!!
HA!
Remon says:
we got SMART TUNNEL
ha!
HA~!
| Navin | says:
PAY SO MUCHH TO USE TUNNEL HA!
Remon says:
nothing to say
| Navin | says:
FOR WHAT!
Remon says:
-____-" free
| Navin | says:
errr
SHATTAP
U LIYING
Remon says:
CANNOT SAY ANYTHIGN ALREDY!
ahhh! noob!
| Navin | says:
WHO YOU?
PFFTT
Remon says:
i'm spiderman
| Navin | says:
BANGSAR GOT COOL PARTIES DURING WORLD CUP
HA!
WE HAV NICE CARS
WE HAV CHILLIS
WE HAVE 2 MPH
WE HAVE FISH & CO
Remon says:
CEH, we got the whole NAZA, PERODUA,
we got CHICKEN & CO
| Navin | says:
pfftt
Remon says:
we got borders
we got MPH
| Navin | says:
NAZA & PRODUA
Remon says:
we got MP 6
| Navin | says:
WE GOT CHUN CHUN CAR SHOPS

WE GOT TIMES BOOKSTOR ALSO
Remon says:
we got spare parts damn pro one
| Navin | says:
PFFTTT
Remon says:
WE GOT OUR OWN RAMLEE BURGER STALL
| Navin | says:
THAT SUNGAI BESI
SAME
WE GOT 4 OTAI BURGERS
AND U HAVENT TRIED OTAI
SO SHATTAP
Remon says:
I tried
not nice
WE GOT the Awesome Bintang Fashion also
| Navin | says:
TIPU
Remon says:
and 9 pet shops all over
| Navin | says:
FOR WAHT?
Remon says:
we care for animals
| Navin | says:
WE DONT LIKE SEEING ANIMALS IN CAGES
BANGSAR LOVE ANIMALS
UNLIKE DESA PANDAN
9 PET SHOPS OF ANIMALS WITH NO LOVE
Remon says:
got love
unlike bangsar
| Navin | says:
TIPU!!!1
Remon says:
we don't let our cat die on the road
| Navin | says:
BANGSAR WHERE GOT???
Remon says:
we keep it safe
| Navin | says:
WE TAKE TO SPCA
Remon says:
dunno near your house there
| Navin | says:
HA SOMEONE THINKING OF THINGS TO SAY
Remon says:
SPCA near AMPANG
| Navin | says:
TIPU!!
Remon says:
near DesaPandan
lol
| Navin | says:
NO CAT DEAD
Remon says:
GOT~!
| Navin | says:
TIPU!!!
TIPU
Remon says:
i saw like a kazillion
| Navin | says:
TIPU
TIPU
Remon says:
awak tipu~
| Navin | says:
TIPU
Remon says:
PENGENIPUAN
diam u~!
| Navin | says:
LALALAALALALAALALAALALALA
KAMU BERPENGENIPUANKAN SAYA LAAA
Remon says:
LOL
oi~
jangan mengesenyumkan aku
| Navin | says:
OI
SEPAK KOU
DONTFRIENDYOU

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Who What Where, Pikachu

I was meaning to update yesterday but I kindda ran out of time. It was getting late and I had to wake up early. I actually had something to blog about yesterday.

Today it's so my blog doesn't look dead as half the blogs on my links (no offense to you guys)


Age is catching up with me, I feel the burn from playing too much basketball. After yet another Tuesday basketball session, I felt my thigh strained, the same toe which I almost broke from the last week of basketball go stiff and painful and aches and pains at general places. Maybe it aint age but more on time to warm up before a game. Now I'm thinking whether I should tourture my body some more by playing futal later today.


It's ridiculously fast don't you agree? It's already term 4 and we're already on our 3rd week. Another 6 more weeks of college to go. Then training.


Speaking of which, for the second industrial training I've been meaning to go to a resort. So after talking to Remon, I've decided to goto Pangkor Laut Resort as my first choice, Pelangi Spa & Resort as my second choice and Thanjung Rhu Resort as my third choice. 3 months of working in paradise but there are setbacks. I won't be down for my birthday and I wont be down for Deepavali. Two of the biggest holidays I look forward to.

Yes My Birthday Is A Public Holiday, Just The MAN Feels That I'm Too Cool For Everyone To Celebrate My Birthday So We Keep It Under Wraps

Besides think of the danger to my life by parading around the streets, last thing we need is another JFK incident.

I have lots to say about everything, how I feel, what I think of some people but it's not worth it, no matter what, nobody changes. They NEVER change, there is no point on continuously trying got get that in their thick skull. They won't help.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Write The Future (DH vs DC Edition)

Wayne Remon has the ball, can't be holding it too long to ponder on his next move, quick pass to Esteban Manikandan (Canavaro), he takes the ball side steps the striker avoids the tackle from the midfielder and leaves the defender on the ground as he dribbles past him too. 1 vs 1 situation with the keeper, the keeper dives in and gets the ball.


Seriously I was stunned but Canavaro's superb skill to dribble past the whole team. The game felt like some World Cup final match, the atmosphere that it was giving, just everything about it. You'd just want to give your A game in this.

Futsal at college, indoor court, hard court. My favourite. Play conditions? Night, weather; beautiful.

World Cup feeling but Champion's League play, home and away game. Lost our home game but won our away game.

We had the likes of Iker Cassilas (I can't remember the lecturer's name), Esteban Canavaro (Mani), Vidic Teoh (Adrian), Mr. Gopi Puyol (Just without the Sunsilk hair), Wayne Remon (but played midfield), Moxx Ballack (Rainer), Derek Messi and Navin van Persie.

Black Friday vs DC United
Home game we were leading from what appeared to be a keeper error after van Persie headed the ball into the box and the keeper was dumbfounded by the pass and it somehow went it. DH United somehow let the goal get ahead of them and were lazy on the defense against the counter attack. Which let to Black Friday conceding to late goals.

On the second leg, we conceded an early goal. Early in the game there were many chances, such as Esteban Manikandan's sublime dribbling skills against the whole DC United team. Just after Black Friday conceded van Persie took a shot that curled for the top corner but was just centimetres too high. A quick counter attack engineered by Wayne Remon who ended up having a great finish for the attack. The final attack and time running out, Cassilas throws the ball far and wide just slightly above DC United's defender to van Persie who was waiting for it. He' chests it down and with his back towards goal be blasts it to kingdom come and there we have it the winning goal.




For the love of the game, it was most amount of fun Black Friday had in a long time. And we are really looking forward to the next game, next week.

Unfortunately for now, we're just worried on the aches and pains. I can't walk fast. I have to walk slowly because my calfs, hamstrings, knees and groin muscles are worked to the bone. When I walk, it feels like jelly.




These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Fluck Fluckedy Fluck

It Speaks For Itself, Go Headbutt A Bullet

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Langga Freaking Wheee Day 2

Yes the much awaited part two of our 3 part Langkawi vacation.


So after a good drinking session, we went for a walk at 3am in the morning.. Mani, Frans, Remon and myself. So we're standing at the beach and Mani walks up to the water for some reason. We stand behind him... It's dark but the moon gives out enough light to see the beach clear, I see something running towards us, running along the beach line... it runs past Mani and we could make out a figure of a dog, a black dog.

We were like "WHAT THE FUCK?!!" It was pretty weird coz the dog didnt stop running and from what I know usually when a dog encounters a human it actually like stops or "layans" the human but in this case this "dog" was determined and continued to run.


What's even more creepy? My uncle says there ain't no dogs in Langkawi. Freaky much?



So after some much needed sleep we all headed to this malay stall for some good nasi lemak. It was literally a walk down the road from the hotel but it was like a 15 minutes walk... longest 15 minutes la, was seriously damn hungry. Remon proud with his orange converse

So unfortunately when we get there, there were no more nasi lemaks. I ended up having some really oily and not appetizing koay tiow, I ended up not finishing it.



So the girls went shopping and the guys did what we do best when the girls go shopping... CC!! Yes we went CC at Langkawi. Quite pathetic but we had a REALLY good time

So we were back before the girls and we did what we did best, rape each other.

So after the beaches and banana we went to a beach side place for some tom yam. Then this chap comes along and plays some tunes... And HE'S GOOD!!




So after another CC session we take Frans to the beach for a late birthday present... getting buried in the sand.

Now THIS is where the fun starts

Day 3 should be up by end of this week or earlier... hopefully earlier... I malas wanna write about this already

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

It Came From Langkawi Part 1

First up I'd like to congratulate myself for this is my 200th post for Thoughts Of The Illogic. Where did the time and posts go?


Anywhoots, It's finally here, part one of a four part (I think)

This post is JUST for the first day...
A little note, 90% of this pictures are candid and not posed. Dunno why I felt like saying that. Don't like it? TOO BAD LA! YOU GO LANGKAWI THEN TAKE PICTURES YOU WANT!! Pfftt... people these days....

Remon And That "I Want A Blow Job" Face

Took This Pic Of Frans, Seriously Like Some Album Of A K-Pop Album
FYI, he wasn't posing. Heck he didn't even know the picture was taken till later that day

I was full of excitement, this is gonna sound so gay, but I was excited because this was gonna be my first time on a plane. My first time flying. Arika said I looked like some Backstreet Boy, or was that me who said it.... should have updated earlier

Don't think I'd forget this plane, as this plane was the first plane which I've flown in. The feeling when we took off. I was like a little girl... literally. Airbus A320

Alien Fingers

TERRORIST!!

So after the 45 minute flight from the LCCT to Langkawi airport, we took at cab to our motel.

Proud to be "Budget" Dutch

Most of us felt abit tired and the rest such as Remon and myself wanted to show our colors and a fine job we did, summore 2 for 30 bucks... I call it a bargain!

So as usual, the guys are done changing and what not and standing outside for a good 20 minutes while the girls powder their noses. We were wondering whether we should go for the Sunset cruise, because it had just rained, it wouldnt have been safe

But lucky us the skies cleared up and off we headed for the Sunset Cruise. Imagine, RM50 got us buffet style food, free flow alcohol and treatment rightful for a king. I kept telling myself it saying this trip was a day trip and Sunset Cruise was the only thing we were doing, it would be soo damn worth it.



The yacht was really chilling and the music too. The highlight of this picture? Remon's face. He seemed to have that face everytime he had a glass with him




This would have been the highlights of the cruise. Shark feeding as the crew member called it. They layout this net behind the boat and cruise at a low speed and we get on the nets and hang on. Seriously the feeling was awesome, and to top it off

Sir Can I Get You A Beer To Drink?

Never did beer taste soo good. It was the beer of relaxation, everything tasted better.

By the looks of our faces you can see how much we enjoyed the damn cruise. Mani and Frans tak boleh belah, acting poyo looking here and there.

Mani just didn't like this picture. To me it was like some body sculpting ad, from left, before, in thee middle, during and on the right, after.


Mani says give him 6 months and he'll have packs too... I plan to make mine more obvious by then.

This has to be one of the most awesome-est pictures of the trip. He has this model/porn star look

All you can eat buffet and the food was *MOUTH WATERING!!*

It can't be called a Sunset Cruise with out a sunset right? Well on that day there wasn't much of a sunset either but the lighting and the scenery was to die for. Thank dog for my awesome photography skill that kills and makes you spill near the window sill that I just drilled... lame I know

THAT PRETTY MUCH CONCLUDES PART 1 OF LANGGA FREAKING WHEEE
But For Part 1 These Are The Pictures Of The Day

Seriously, what would we do without Frans, I sure as hell know I miss him now

ON ANOTHER NOTE
Conversation With Derek

| Steve | says:
i love you
[i]J w e n .[/i] [c=4]BLEH.[/c] says:
same
| Steve | says:
awww
lets hav a baby
[i]J w e n .[/i] [c=4]BLEH.[/c] says:
let's have ten!
| Steve | says:
OOO
boy girl boy girl boy girl boy girl boy girl
in tht order
[i]J w e n .[/i] [c=4]BLEH.[/c] says:
no we should have girl boy boy girl boy then girl girl then boy girl boy
| Steve | says:
okay
that works too

Me, Derek

If you've seen these pictures somewhere
else rather than my or Remon's Facebook account
please do inform us, as you know copying pictures without ones notification is no nice,
stealing is not nice

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up