Tuesday 31 August 2010

Times Like These

With the way how things are going, I just want to hide away. There is way too much shit on my plate.

The usual amount of bad luck I get in one year has been crammed and blown straight to my face in the likes of August. I feel really tired. Sleeping never helps, I'm in trouble in one way or another.


I need a hand. I need help. I need someone, anyone.


I'm way over my head. First thing to do is to take care of this little problem. If what he says is correct and she made it formal, I am fucked. Can you blame me? I didn't sleep for 2 days because of that damn assignment and at the brink of tears because I felt soo useless, I just couldn't figure out how to get rid of the bugs in the video.


Arika and Mani helped but I was really upset. Tears were there, I tried hard to hide them. You give me this choice, fail one or fail 5. I was mad, all I asked for was 2 minutes. Go up, pass the files and come back down. You didn't give.


Somehow I'm the bad guy in all this huh?




Got A Light Bulb Full Of Anger
And I Can Switch It On And Off
Situations It Can Be So Bright, I Can't Believe
How Pathetic I Can Be





These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Sunday 29 August 2010

Symbol In My Driveway

I've been meaning to update, I really have been but I haven't had the time to do so. I'm just making a quick blog to prove this blog aint dead. Will blog in a few hours time. I need to mend my ankles


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Wednesday 11 August 2010

Black 13

So for Malaysian Studies I did some last minute work for our assignment, May 13th 1969. Yes, not many know of this day. Not many were old enough to remember or elders just dont tell us as they are scared we're repeat our mistakes. But isn't history full of mistakes? We read about these mistakes so we dont repeat these mistakes. Anyhu... Here are some personal points of view during May 13th.


I was deeply touched by all of them. Believe it or not, I was in tears just by reading them.




I was then a nine-year-old son of an FRU policeman. We lived at the Police Depot at Jalan Gurney, Kuala Lumpur.
Even at my age then, it was clear to me that larger forces were at work in this terrible incident.

From our house in the Depot, we saw fires burning on the first two nights in the Batu Road (Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman) area – proof for me that the Chinese were attacked first. It was only on the third night when the fires appeared in a different part of the sky – over the Datuk Keramat and Kampung Baru areas.

Anyway, as we grew up, this subject came up many times and it was always clear to most people I met that the Chinese were attacked first.

I was also witness to another phenomenon that backs up an observation in the documents.

Around May 13, the older sons of many of my Malay neighbours were not be seen and they only returned days later. It was all hush-hush but their younger brothers told me that they were asked to assemble at residence of Harun Idris. From the way they behaved when they returned, I was led to believe that they had participated in the riots.

My father spoke harshly of the soldiers too. When the FRU men were sent out, many of the areas they went to had earlier been visited by the soldiers and the residents (or what were left of them) tearfully told stories of how the soldiers joined the Malays in attacking them.

Friends I met years later in Malacca also told me that soldiers had fired into shophouses in Jalan Bunga Raya for no reason. I have heard lots of other anecdotes too. Many Malaysians would have been personally affected by this tragedy. Maybe this would a good time for them to come forward and share their recollections.

The publication of these truths is long overdue. I hope it will lead to the different races of this country becoming more aware of how they are being manipulated to keep a select group of people in power.

So many innocent people died during those tragic days just so that power remained in the hands of the perpetrators. Datuk Harun (and I always believed this was due to divine retribution) never led a happy life after that incident. That fact is well-documented. I’m sure God would have punished the others too, whoever they are.


Another One



I was in class ( Form Six ) at a school in PJ, BBBS in Section 14. Totally oblivious of what was happening. This was then called FEC or Further Education School. Not one of us knew what was just about happening.

After class, I walked with my sisters, as usual, to the bust depot, about a 10-minute walk. That was when things didn’t seem right. There were no buses there. But we, along with others, waited, not long though. Nightfall was approaching.

It was the weirdest feeling I had ever felt …. All very quiet. No buses, then I realized there were no cars on the roads too!

Then the first bus came …. And as far as I can remember, the only noise was the sound of the bus.

We saw the passengers in the bus …. All with blood, some on their faces. To this day I can still picture a Chinese woman, in her 40s I believe, in the bus, holding some kind of a cloth on her face. Her face was covered with blood and all of them were rushing out of the bus.

We still did not know what the heck was happening. Then the passengers told us … still not knowing it was a racial clash between the Malays and the Chinese.

All innocent people in vehicles coming from Bangsar to PJ ….. no chance for them …. As they were stopped by the Kampung Kerenchi mob. Some who knew just zoomed past. Others were all slaughtered. One pregnant woman was massacred. No one was spared by these angry mob.

Kampung Kerenchi was like 10 minutes away from the bus depot. I don’t know how that bus went past but windows were smashed and people in it were hurt . I guess the driver rammed through the mob, only way to get past.

You could not escape going through the Federal Highway without passing and facing the wrath of the inhabitants of Kampung Kerenchi.

It took us all quite a while to realize what exactly was happening. It was a horrible sight. My sisters were there and we had no transport …. The mob may arrive …. All kinds of thoughts raced across my mind. I told my sisters to wait in a hidden place while I ran …. non-stop ( about 4-5 miles ) back home to tell and ask my father to pick them up.

I will never forget that run. As I ran, I started looking everywhere, behind, sideways, in front, to see if there was a mob of any kind.

We didn’t have the luxury of owning a cell phone then.

I managed to reach home and my father drove immediately to the place with me, to pick up my sisters. I thank God all of us were safe.

I think it was a couple of days later when a Curfew was imposed. Shops closed. Then after a few days, the curfew was lifted for an hour for all to get provisions.

I was living in Jalan Gasing at that time. Imagine, curfew and some of us got together and sneaked to another friend’s place, across the road …. Just to play gin rummy! We went there commando style. Heard and saw an army truck ( with orders to shoot to kill ), ducked amongst the lalang and crept to the house and we did the same thing returning home!

What I wrote is a summary. What is more important is, I too, as everyone else do not know who started it all.

Some would say, the idiots in politics.



Lastly



I was teaching in the Klang valley at the time, and was returning home after a badminton game when I saw the Tunku wept on TV. My heart went out to him. I noticed the tearful eyes of my roommate, a teacher from Kedah.

Some local gangsters came to our house to advise us to be ready with any weapon we could find, such as iron pipes. We were to signal any attack by beating pots and pans. That night I heard the security forces shouting at someone at the end of our block, asking him to "keluar."

The next day I heard gunshots somewhere near a theater: someone with a gun was holed up in his room. He later shot himself, I think.

The Malays were also frightened: parents arrived at the urban school wanting to take their children back because of a rumor that the Chinese were going to attack their children. The HM was absent and I refused their request. So did my Chinese and Indian colleagues until the lessons were over and then, as promised, we escorted the children passed the mainly Chinese shops to the city bus station. For the first time I was scared my own people would do something stupid.

A few days later a Chinese bus driver was stabbed to death somewhere near Shah Alam. Some houses near Meru, some miles from Klang, were burned and looted.

Later, I heard my elder brother was in the KL theater that was sprayed by the army's machine guns. I heard about a New Zealand nurse raped by some kampung hot heads - wondered if they were Harun's people. Things quietened down when the troops were replaced by the Sarawak Rangers.

In the aftermath I told my largely kampung students that while the communities were attacking one another, their leaders were having durian parties. But stupid people, especially the town Chinese, were talking about boycotting the Malay durian sellers. I told the few Chinese students to realize that this was a struggle between politicians and they should not be used as pawns.



My heart went to to each and everyone of them. The suffering they went through. Now you know why I say, race & religion are unnescessary borders... They cause nothing but pain and anguish.



Palms leaves, like blades (May 13, 1969)
Curfew: from the walnut cabinet
the test pattern’s squealing note.
Tuning the wireless past that
wailing from another planet.
Sirens whooping –
polis or ambulance?
screaming … then silence [ ]
.
Banana palms clatter, like blades.
Blades falling – a bad dreaming,
a scene from nowhere, everywhere.
Clouds, like smoke.
Monkeys, like sirens.
Palms, like blades
chopping through the air.


It's a regrettable incident... have a prayer for those who were innocent. Don't forget May 13th 1969

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Tuesday 10 August 2010

It's So Fucking Unfair

Seriously... Not even a fucking week. FUCK!! SERIOUSLY!! FUCK!! AGAIN!! I JUST FUCKING GOT IT!! IT'S ONLY FUCKING WEEK!!

Fuck Fuckedy Fuck Fuck Fuck


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Monday 9 August 2010

HOLY SHIT GUESS WHAT!!


HOLY SHIT FCUK!! GUESS WHAT?!



It's a Monday, college, life, boring *sigh*


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

A Conversation With Remon

Remon says:
you curse us isit??

| Navin | says:
??
why ar?
Remon says:
ohh maii~
gawdd..
eh
| Navin | says:
=.=
Remon says:
some one bang gillians car
-__-'
brb
i go mandi first
| Navin | says:
o.o
i didnt curse u
but they maybe
KARMA!!
btw
derek coming 2molo for futsal
we got MESSI!!
Remon says:
oh ham jee!! damn nice wehy~~
| Navin | says:
?
Remon says:
messi!! wee~~

| Navin | says:
oo
he said maybe
Remon says:
k la at least got hope

| Navin | says:
u saying we no hope without derek HA?
LIKE THAT LAA
DONT TRUST US!!
Remon says:
no
| Navin | says:
FINE

DONT FREN YOU!
wait
Remon says:
i'm just saying our game easy with him
| Navin | says:
be fore that
Remon says:
LOL
| Navin | says:
wht happened to gillians car
Remon says:
oh
well
some idiot in his benz
| Navin | says:
his fault or urs?
Remon says:
"tried" to cut
| Navin | says:
lol
Remon says:
end up hitting gillians
| Navin | says:
"tried"?
then?
Remon says:
yea fail
damn stupid
we pursuit him la.
but that babi guy didn't stop
| Navin | says:
take number only la

Remon says:
take alredy
| Navin | says:
so?
make report
Remon says:
picture somemore got!
LOl
yea tomorrow report
| Navin | says:
so smart chase and crash and die
=.=
Remon says:
coz KL canot
| Navin | says:
MAKE TODAY!!!
Remon says:
24 hours bah
afternoon tomorrow
| Navin | says:
JUST GET IT DONE LAA
WTFFFF
Remon says:
mani, me, gillian
| Navin | says:
mani???
Remon says:
yea
he knows the station
| Navin | says:
where it happened?
Remon says:
we all kl people noob bah
SARAVANAN
| Navin | says:
=.=
bloody hell
its near pyramid
actually right beside =.=
NOOBS!
and pls ar
u ampang and desa pandan ppl noob
ampang ppl so malas wanna go bangsar to drop friend
pfftt
desa pandan JUST noob only
=P
Remon says:
-___-'
OI~
Dp is cool ok!?
we are too cool
we can make a country out of desa pandan
| Navin | says:
pfftt
Remon says:
too pro alredy
| Navin | says:
sure
Remon says:
got McD
got Secret Recipe
got 7-11
| Navin | says:
bangsar is the most MULTI RACIAL PLACE!!
HA!
Remon says:
got speedy video
| Navin | says:
GOT
Remon says:
got KFC
| Navin | says:
WE GOT 1 mcd... 2 711
Remon says:
got Mamak
| Navin | says:
3 malls
easily 20 mamaks
2 basketball courst
Remon says:
we have one mamak every 5 seconds
| Navin | says:
3 football fields
Remon says:
we got 4 football field
| Navin | says:
2 futsal courst
tons of swimming pools
Remon says:
at north, south, east west
| Navin | says:
SAME LAAA
Remon says:
got 2 futsal court
2 badminton court
| Navin | says:
i just making u feel better by saying to 20 oni
badminton got 4
got 6 tennis courst
Remon says:
we too cool for tennis
| Navin | says:
got 2 alexis
got cool places to lepak
got nice ppl
Remon says:
we got 15 peters
| Navin | says:
got multi racial ppls
HUH?
Remon says:
we got awesome cybercafes
| Navin | says:
pfft
cybercafe for noobs who want to skip skol
Remon says:
this one too pro alredy
we got the best MILO maker in the world at Rejab
| Navin | says:
pffftt
BACKSIDE!!
BEST ONE IS TAYLORS CRISPY POPIAH!!!!
Remon says:
*points to my butt* here here
| Navin | says:
WE HAVE THE BEST VIEW OF KL SKYLINE!!
Remon says:
WE HAVE KL!!!
MUAHAhA`
| Navin | says:
pffftt
BACKSIDE!!!
U CANT LOOK AT IT AND PAK TOR!!!
Remon says:
2 minute drive to everything
| Navin | says:
SAME!!
Remon says:
CAN
| Navin | says:
BUT UR PLACE ALWAYS JAM!!
HA!
Remon says:
we got SMART TUNNEL
ha!
HA~!
| Navin | says:
PAY SO MUCHH TO USE TUNNEL HA!
Remon says:
nothing to say
| Navin | says:
FOR WHAT!
Remon says:
-____-" free
| Navin | says:
errr
SHATTAP
U LIYING
Remon says:
CANNOT SAY ANYTHIGN ALREDY!
ahhh! noob!
| Navin | says:
WHO YOU?
PFFTT
Remon says:
i'm spiderman
| Navin | says:
BANGSAR GOT COOL PARTIES DURING WORLD CUP
HA!
WE HAV NICE CARS
WE HAV CHILLIS
WE HAVE 2 MPH
WE HAVE FISH & CO
Remon says:
CEH, we got the whole NAZA, PERODUA,
we got CHICKEN & CO
| Navin | says:
pfftt
Remon says:
we got borders
we got MPH
| Navin | says:
NAZA & PRODUA
Remon says:
we got MP 6
| Navin | says:
WE GOT CHUN CHUN CAR SHOPS

WE GOT TIMES BOOKSTOR ALSO
Remon says:
we got spare parts damn pro one
| Navin | says:
PFFTTT
Remon says:
WE GOT OUR OWN RAMLEE BURGER STALL
| Navin | says:
THAT SUNGAI BESI
SAME
WE GOT 4 OTAI BURGERS
AND U HAVENT TRIED OTAI
SO SHATTAP
Remon says:
I tried
not nice
WE GOT the Awesome Bintang Fashion also
| Navin | says:
TIPU
Remon says:
and 9 pet shops all over
| Navin | says:
FOR WAHT?
Remon says:
we care for animals
| Navin | says:
WE DONT LIKE SEEING ANIMALS IN CAGES
BANGSAR LOVE ANIMALS
UNLIKE DESA PANDAN
9 PET SHOPS OF ANIMALS WITH NO LOVE
Remon says:
got love
unlike bangsar
| Navin | says:
TIPU!!!1
Remon says:
we don't let our cat die on the road
| Navin | says:
BANGSAR WHERE GOT???
Remon says:
we keep it safe
| Navin | says:
WE TAKE TO SPCA
Remon says:
dunno near your house there
| Navin | says:
HA SOMEONE THINKING OF THINGS TO SAY
Remon says:
SPCA near AMPANG
| Navin | says:
TIPU!!
Remon says:
near DesaPandan
lol
| Navin | says:
NO CAT DEAD
Remon says:
GOT~!
| Navin | says:
TIPU!!!
TIPU
Remon says:
i saw like a kazillion
| Navin | says:
TIPU
TIPU
Remon says:
awak tipu~
| Navin | says:
TIPU
Remon says:
PENGENIPUAN
diam u~!
| Navin | says:
LALALAALALALAALALAALALALA
KAMU BERPENGENIPUANKAN SAYA LAAA
Remon says:
LOL
oi~
jangan mengesenyumkan aku
| Navin | says:
OI
SEPAK KOU
DONTFRIENDYOU


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Wednesday 4 August 2010

Who What Where, Pikachu



I was meaning to update yesterday but I kindda ran out of time. It was getting late and I had to wake up early. I actually had something to blog about yesterday.

Today it's so my blog doesn't look dead as half the blogs on my links (no offense to you guys)


Age is catching up with me, I feel the burn from playing too much basketball. After yet another Tuesday basketball session, I felt my thigh strained, the same toe which I almost broke from the last week of basketball go stiff and painful and aches and pains at general places. Maybe it aint age but more on time to warm up before a game. Now I'm thinking whether I should tourture my body some more by playing futal later today.


It's ridiculously fast don't you agree? It's already term 4 and we're already on our 3rd week. Another 6 more weeks of college to go. Then training.


Speaking of which, for the second industrial training I've been meaning to go to a resort. So after talking to Remon, I've decided to goto Pangkor Laut Resort as my first choice, Pelangi Spa & Resort as my second choice and Thanjung Rhu Resort as my third choice. 3 months of working in paradise but there are setbacks. I won't be down for my birthday and I wont be down for Deepavali. Two of the biggest holidays I look forward to.




Yes My Birthday Is A Public Holiday, Just The MAN Feels That I'm Too Cool For Everyone To Celebrate My Birthday So We Keep It Under Wraps






Besides think of the danger to my life by parading around the streets, last thing we need is another JFK incident.






I have lots to say about everything, how I feel, what I think of some people but it's not worth it, no matter what, nobody changes. They NEVER change, there is no point on continuously trying got get that in their thick skull. They won't help.


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

 
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