What's Up With That?

Been actually studying lately and mind you I've actually learned some things and find certain subjects easier.


I'm not talking about anyone in particular, it's just me thinking out, why are people sensitive? I've changed myself to adapt to sensitive people, not to get on their bad side. But in spite of that, there seems to be more nonsense popping up.


I somewhat feel upset about Remon's case. Not upset for him but at him. I think I've told you before, bro; just tell me.


But lately, you too have changed, reason why I don't ask you is because you shrug off my question and say you are okay. Mon, you are not a good liar.


I guess its the season where everyone is disappointing one another eh?


I know I'm disappointed with Aiman.


You are too thick headed, persistent and stupid. Missing practical classes? Really dude?

Honestly, I wont be surprised if I don't see you in class next term

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Soo Close Yet Soo Far

I'm soo not in the mood for college later. I mean After going through the wonder called Pangkor Island Resort.


Went there for a day for my interview. Will blog more about it tomorrow as I can't seem to upload pictures into the blogger thingy.

So finally the holidays are coming to an end and I'm going back to college. Yay college =.=



These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Opening Up

This is gonna be an interesting post. I'm gonna talk bout me feelings.

Old ones to be exact.


So was talking to an old crush recently, after talking to her I went to sleep as it was late. As I laid on my pillow, I was thinking of that past. Thinking about her.


Since kindergarten, I had a crush on her, but frankly, I didn't know what was a crush and I was like "eww girls!"

I was WAY too shy to talk to her, that and all my friends would have teased me if I did so. I always saw her, I can't remember who she would hang out with. But I realized that every time I see her, I looked at her, she always had a smile on her face. She just had one of those cheerful faces. A face that could just light up your day.



It was like a secret crush. I never admitted it to anyone, a secret I kept till now I guess.


I remember when I was 10; it was the end of the year and I was going to my new class for next year. Looked at the name list like everyone else. Saw my name and started looking for my friends names and I stumbled upon her name. I think my heart skipped.


I was actually looking forward to talking to her. Actually saying something to her. Heck, I don't think she's ever said my name.

January 3rd 2002, I went to class. I picked my seat, sat beside another buddy. I waited for her, waited. But she never came. I didn't think much of it. I just thought she's still in a holiday mood or still in a holiday or worst, she's feeling under the weather.

One week passed and I couldn't wait. I and to one of her friends and asked. She had moved, migrated to a different country. My heart sank.



Back to the future


Here we are. I totally forgotten bout her till my friend showed me her Facebook profile. I hesitated to request a friend request thingy. Lot of things ran through my head;

Does she remember me?
Would she think I'm some stalker?
SHE HAS NEVER SPOKEN TO ME AND YOU WANT TO ADD HER AS A FRIEND? BRILLIANT!

I did, she accepted. We spoke, that's that.


If you know who she is, please do me a favor and keep it to yourself, please don't say who or point fingers at the chatbox. If you are really curious, MSN or Facebook or something

A Random Picture I Came Across While Googling Crush

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Still Wondering

I don't know why, but I really wish I had some kind of disorder. I mean it would make my life soo much more interesting.



Came back from service. I puked out what I ate, brilliant. I had a feeling the chicken wasn't cooked properly. By puking it proved to be so.


I'm just looking forward to Pangkor, seriously I haven't even gone for the freaking interview and I'm planning everything already. Relatives said Pangkor Island Resort is quite dead and its just for relaxation. Heck after August all I want to do is relax.


Gimme a guitar, bottle of scotch, a futsal ball, my sketch pad and my MP3 player. I will be soo dayum happy.


I have no idea why I'm blogging. I'm bored


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Got You A Brand New Heaven

Two hours to burn till dinner service. I'm Mani's guest. Bored so what do I do? Go to the library and sit infront of the computer.

I'm just soo bloody hooked on to Jack Johnson's Symbols In My Driveway. It's like the BEST song to listen to when you need to chill. Seriously I mean its the best song!

So went to youtube to try and learn the song and failed miserablely.... I can't find a single version that makes it easy to see what they are playing. But found how to play Gone and Flake... Come on holidays! Waiting for you. I know what I'm gonna be doing then


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

I Hate Jams, But Peanut Butter & Jam Is Okay

I 've leaving college early, I love avoiding the Taylors jam, the jam we have within the college itself...

But after that, on the Federal highway, you just get sucked in to this sea of cars. And you are only gonna get out of it two hours later.

Yesterday that's exactly what happened. I usually turn out at PJ and avoid the whole jam at Federal highway but on this Friday, the jam was seriously bad. I turn into PJ to be stuck at another jam. Took a turn into the industrial area. Got stuck there in another jam.

I said to myself

screw it. I can't avoid it

I parked the car at the side of the road, I put down the windows abit and turned of the engine. Moved to the passenger's seat and took at nap. Put my alarm for 8pm when the roads will be clear due to everyone breaking fast. Worked like a charm. Next time, I'm just gonna stay in college till 8pm.

Something is missing, I dont know what, but it just is

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Mediocre Bad Guys

I love sports. Why the major affection towards sports? As you all know with all the crap happening to me and stress build up only three things calm me down.

1. Guitar (till a certain point I get sick of it because I'm not improving)
2. "Calm Me Down" Playlist (nothing but Jack Johnson's Best)
3. Sports


In the noon I was really stressed, breathing heavily (abit I realised when I'm stressed) and cursing to kingdom come. But from 7.30pm till 10.30pm everything disappeared. I felt soo relaxed. I didnt feel an ounce of stress and I wasn't thinking about any worries in the world.


Sports


Futsal and basketball, you can never get me to stop. It's my weed.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Black Swan

I'm not sure how I put up with all of this. If I was put in this situation say 3 or 4 years back, I'd just shoot myself. I'm still wondering, what is keeping me going?


August has just gone and it's been 2 hours and 50 minutes into September. I'm really looking forward to industrial training right about now. I really want to go to Pangkor and be lost in my thoughts.

I've given up on France. I feel like it was a cruel joke the college played on us. Just fucking tell us earlier that it's only for F&B and Kitchen instead of us finding out much later. Lecturer says there is still a possibility for me to go. *sigh* With all the great luck I have right now, I really doubt that is even possible.


I guess these two words are keeping me going everday as I wake up;

Hope & Believe

Yea, interesting words for a guy who gave up hope and believe on almost everything and everyone.



Still waiting for the Sun to rise

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up