Opening Up

This is gonna be an interesting post. I'm gonna talk bout me feelings.

Old ones to be exact.


So was talking to an old crush recently, after talking to her I went to sleep as it was late. As I laid on my pillow, I was thinking of that past. Thinking about her.


Since kindergarten, I had a crush on her, but frankly, I didn't know what was a crush and I was like "eww girls!"

I was WAY too shy to talk to her, that and all my friends would have teased me if I did so. I always saw her, I can't remember who she would hang out with. But I realized that every time I see her, I looked at her, she always had a smile on her face. She just had one of those cheerful faces. A face that could just light up your day.



It was like a secret crush. I never admitted it to anyone, a secret I kept till now I guess.


I remember when I was 10; it was the end of the year and I was going to my new class for next year. Looked at the name list like everyone else. Saw my name and started looking for my friends names and I stumbled upon her name. I think my heart skipped.


I was actually looking forward to talking to her. Actually saying something to her. Heck, I don't think she's ever said my name.

January 3rd 2002, I went to class. I picked my seat, sat beside another buddy. I waited for her, waited. But she never came. I didn't think much of it. I just thought she's still in a holiday mood or still in a holiday or worst, she's feeling under the weather.

One week passed and I couldn't wait. I and to one of her friends and asked. She had moved, migrated to a different country. My heart sank.



Back to the future


Here we are. I totally forgotten bout her till my friend showed me her Facebook profile. I hesitated to request a friend request thingy. Lot of things ran through my head;

Does she remember me?
Would she think I'm some stalker?
SHE HAS NEVER SPOKEN TO ME AND YOU WANT TO ADD HER AS A FRIEND? BRILLIANT!

I did, she accepted. We spoke, that's that.


If you know who she is, please do me a favor and keep it to yourself, please don't say who or point fingers at the chatbox. If you are really curious, MSN or Facebook or something

A Random Picture I Came Across While Googling Crush

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up