There Is No End

Honestly seems like there is no end to this chapter. I'm trying to start a new chapter in life, I want to move on, I want to change. Now the changing there is progress, but the chapter is taking abit longer, I want to clear the air with you two first but you don't plan on giving me a chance to do so.

She wanting to end a relationship for no apparent reason is justified... She's a girl, she is unhappy. But me, having being a fucking wreck for two months wondering what the fuck did I do wrong, did I hurt her, did I offend her, were we going too fast? Fucking questions that run through my head every fucking night and eventually after 4 months deciding to end things because I feel it's not working, that the only time we talk is when I call or bbm or try to go out with her, to take the fucking initiative to try and work things out, now I'm an insensitive, inconsiderate bastard for doing that. You have no fucking idea what I when through.

During that break we had, my mum would ask me "When am I gonna meet her?" All I would tell my mum is that you are busy that you have things to do. Pathetic right?

Well fuck that, I don't want bad blood between us, what has happened has happened but don't just fucking sit there when your best friend goes around spreading shit that isn't true.


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

I Have Way Too Many Names

Sat-Nav huh? That's a new one. Care to explain? Yes I still do. On occasions. Mate, I feel like shit for not being there when you need someone but I really need to worry about myself at the moment. Shit is looking up for me but just a little bit. The usual drama and shit.


Amazing how after all that we both pretend like nothing happened at all. Shocking, but I want to prove you wrong as Alo said so. Still confused on what is going on but fuck it I'm taking baby steps.


Here I am at 5.02am on a fucking Monday morning, lying in bed regretting stay out chilling but at the same time, I had a fuck load of fun with Vinot and Nal. Last I saw Vinot was back when Inka sent him home.. it was either then or when I when to Back to School. As for Nal the last time I saw her was at the CNY gathering. Yes, it has been fucking long.

Vinot did something amazing today, something of like numerology. Not to predict the future but to tell a little bit about myself with nothing more than my birthday. Everything he said about me was true, even the traits I didn't realize. I was mind fucked, didn't want to believe it so I got him to do Mark. I was truly convinced after that.

Overall tonight was what I needed. Friends, shisha, booze and laughter. No one whom I had affection for, no crazy bitches and surely no drama. Enjoyed it.

Something really made me upset today. Rumors. I ended things because four fucking months, nothing was happening. I was a fucking mess, apparently that is normal for a guy right? To feel pain? But when I ended things, suddenly I'm the dick? See when she wanted to end it I tried, I talked her to taking a break. But she was like "owh okay, yeah" So don't say I'm an asshole for it. As for the whole "sleeping with someone and disrespecting your friends" honey, just saying I slept on the same bed, that was about it, I don't randomly fuck random people kay. I don't do that. That whole thing was a fucking misunderstanding, but whatever. I'll talk to you later today, not to defend myself but to clear the air and you tell you what exactly happened. That is, IF you want to talk to me. Next time, say something instead of putting it on Twitter.. thenkiu


Well no sleep tonight, back to assignments
These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

My Problem

Know what my problem is? I'm a fucking fucker who loves to get hurt.


I WANT TO FUCKING SCREAM!! WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THAT?! WHY THE FUCK DID YOU SAY ALL OF THAT AND WHEN I FUCKING SO SOME FUCKING AFFECTION YOU DECIDE TO BOLD?


I'm fucking pissed, I seriously want to just smoke. But then again I can't use cigarettes as my excuse to everything. You don't do that to someone for fuck's sake, you don't fucking play with someone's feelings.


You keep asking "are you mad at me" I keep replying "no" What the fuck am I supposed to feel sweetheart? A fucking parade?


You really know how to pick them, Navin.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up