The Gamble

Why do it?

Why are people stupid enough to take their own life to prove they love someone?

Why is it people are fucked up?

Why?

From what I can gather these people do it to prove a point, a point such as they love someone soo much that they are willing to give their life to be with that someone.

Hold on idiot, let's think about that first. What do you get out of killing yourself over some girl/guy?

What The Love Struck Fool Would Think
1. I'll make that person regret not loving me back
2. Make everyone feel sorry for me
3. Haunt her/him
4. By doing so people will remember you forever

You get the idea


What I Think
1. You're an idiot to kill yourself for someone who doesnt think you are good enough
2. You're an idiot for the pain and suffering you "happily" give you family and especially your parents
3. You're an idiot for thinking people will remember forever, a year or two and most people would have forgotten you
4. You're an idiot for trying to get sympathy
5. You're an idiot for thinking you can haunt someone




Come one get real, there is about 6 billion people in the world. Just because one girl doesn't like you doesn't mean it's the end of the world.


The worst thing you can do is after realizing that you and him/her aren't made to be you just stay at home and emo. Let it out, talk to friends you can trust you'll feel a whole lot better.


I had to learn that the hard way. My issue is always about trust and who I trust and shit like that. It's safe to say, I trust more people now days.

Please Think About Your Parents Before You Think About The Gamble, Don't Let Them Down, Don't Let Yourself Down

If anyone needs someone to talk to I'm just a phone call away

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

It Has Happened *Sigh*

It Has Really Happened..


| NK | says:
mcm mana?
dude
i love alexis too
but wht can we do?
Francis says:
I've decided
to quit
taylor's
and
quit diploma
i'm gonna stick to alexis
| NK | says:
wtf
dude
tell me ur joking
Francis says:
i love that place man
| NK | says:
DUDE
| NK | says:
you okay ar?
Francis says:
i dont know how to explain
but
yeah
i've decided to do it
| NK | says:
wait
lemme get this straight
ur quiiting college coz u love alexis
and plan to work there?
Francis says:
yeah
i've decided

Frans Fiscal Has Left Us...

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

He Can Only Fool Himself For So Long

Shit I need more sleep, my schedule is as follows since Monday;


10.00a.m. - Wake Up
12.15p.m. - Walk To Alexis
9.30p.m. - Shower & Computer
1.00a.m. - Sleep


This has been my cycle for awhile. Next week I'll be on the morning shift so I guess I need to sleep earlier. But the week after that I'll be on night shift which means closing up the restaurant at 1 or 2 a.m.


This week is considered over, another 4 more weeks at Alexis. I didn't mention, I'll be doing another 5 more weeks of training somewhere else because Alexis doesn't allow interns to do kitchen because they are afraid we'll "ruin" the food. Whatever.

So Frans and I will be doing the other 5 weeks of training somewhere else. I'm just looking forward to after training, the college gang plans to go to Langkawi. My second time in less than a year. I'm not complaining it would be just what we need. A paradise in more ways than one if you know what I mean

When it comes to how to live his life
He can't be told
Says he's got it all under control
Thinks he knows it's not a problem he's stuck with
But in reality, it'd be a problem to just quit
An addict and he can't hold the reigns
The pain is worse 'cause his friends have it the same
Tries to slow down the problem he's got
But can't get off the carousel
Until he makes it stop

He can only fool himself for so long

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Black Plastic

If you ever wondered what my titles mean, its usually random words I hear in lyrics as I'm blogging, music goes well with blogging. Heck music goes well with everything.


Second day of work and I've met my manager, Jaz. Average height, well built man and somehow looks scary. But then again, somehow he reminds me of well... me.


Don't ask me how but he just does. I think I got the hang of things there and I don't feel as tired as I did on the first day.

This is a short one =) I'm starting to enjoy work


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Mr. Mayukh

Random Notes I Forgot To Write About:

1. I gave Mr. Mayukh a ride to college
2. I served a guy that looks like an older version of Kennedy
3. I counted a total of 7 chicks in Alexis... All without male companions
4. It was sweet of Sook & Filza to say hello to me at work
5. I don't think I can do this for 3 months
6. 50% stopped thinking bout her, the other 50% keeps asking me why

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

What Usually Hurts Is Good For You

I started training today like everyone else. Alexis Bangsar is the place.


First day nothing much, quite boring because I haven't got my own ID for the POS (or whatever you call it) so I have to "observe" everyone else.

The people? There's Kabir the bartender, he may look like in his late twenties but acts childish, he keeps me entertained during the boring periods.

Eliz, the supervisor, she's cool, she showed me around and told me what to do and how to do it.

Lin, she's got to be about around my age I guess, she helped me out when Eliz wasnt around.

AJ, he's somewhat moody and I keep my distance.

Yusuf, he's cool someone you'd talk to once in awhile I guess, I have no common interest with him so its hard to talk.


I was told that I was only going to be doing F&B and not kitchen. So there could be a possibility of a transfer to somewhere else I guess. In other words I wont be making RM1500 in total.


It was just my first day and I'm been having this quite bad back pain. I think it's because of the shoes I'm wearing? That's what my mum says.



Repair Those Burnt Bridges

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

When I Get Out Of Bed

This is going to be a long post. Bear with it.



Yes with exam over and all we wanted to party and we wanted to party HARD! Yes, yes we did but at the end of the night it was abit of a downer... sitting down at the balcony in awkward silence with Remon.

I enjoy a little group therapy session I had on that day. Not just with those two but with another person earlier that day. I realized that person is nice to talk to, when he's alone that is. He's somehow the quiet and reserved type.


Shisha with Mark, Vanessa, Faz and Ashley. Okay, I didnt want my Bangsar friends to meet my college friends after one such incident but I trust Mark not to do anything stupid. He and I have almost the same principles.

It was fun just chilling, talking and shishaing.


I cant put pictures up for some reason. Internet is being a bitch.



When to Ampang yesterday with Remon, Aiman, Mani, Anna, Hans, Gillian, Arika and Jasmine. It was really fun and I bloody saw a FREAKING MUSTANG!!! OH SHIT WEI! I took some pictures of it and will upload all the pictures, all 250++ pictures of that day.


Back Seat Ppl : eh they said turn left.
Mani : *honk honk
Navin : *pointing left left left left... See more
Back Seat Ppl : haa? turn left somemore? wait, is there anything on the left side of this car? Arika, check yr door.
Navin & Mani : *pointing left left LEFT LEFT LEFT
Back Seat Ppl : eh Remon wait! slow down first. ey ey wait, ey stop the car! they're trying to say something!
Remon : what??? *run out of the car
Navin & Mani : DID YOU SEE THAT MUSTANG?!
Back Seat Ppl : -______________________________-


Bowling then to the Petronas Twin Towers Sky Bridge then Petrosains and acted immature with the rest, Burger King, Look Out Point.


Best part of the day? Mani forgot where he parked the car in KLCC. spent about half an hour looking for the car.


I talked about it to some people and I felt better but somehow had a weird feeling in my stomach, didn't know getting over someone is quite this hard.


One thing for sure, the Ceaser's Jerk It Out somehow made me feel better. It just does. That and Rob Thomas' Little Wonders. Wonders of music yet again to the rescue.

Currently in love with these songs


















I hope not to weaken up to someone for a long time, you are the last... for now



These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

She...

I think I've made up my mind. There is nothing I can do about it. We're from two totally different worlds.

I'm Screwed Up

She's Perfect

I don't know if it was one sided or maybe she felt the same way. I could never tell, I can never interpret girls. But one thing is for sure, I'm way too afraid to do anything about it.


I remember the first time I saw her, it was like a "love at first sight thing" but more like she was different, she stood out even though she was somewhat shy and quiet. There was just something about her. She stole my heart.


She stole it and never gave it back, pretending like she never even took it. I think I made it obvious and she was most probably continued replying my messages out of common courtesy.


Soo many times, I would be having an argument in my head about what she thinks of me and whether I should move on that maybe she isn't the one. I've been fickle minded about this.


Mainly because she would dangle just that little bit of hope that maybe she feels the same way I do and then she just snatches it away. So many times, but I've been angry at her for doing so. I can't and don't think I could ever be mad at her.


I'm moving on, as painful as it is going to be I'm moving on.


Relationship is full of shit when it comes to me, it's ALWAYS one sided and I'm at the losing end.




Yes, I started to think again...


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Cunted Week.... Err, I Mean Chun-ted

Okay I have to say, it's been a good week for me. Things are great, assessments were do-able and people have been kind. And I've managed to get some swimming here and there.

WARNING! THERE ARE QUITE A NUMBER OF PICTURES, RANDOM AND SOME MAYBE DEEMED ILLEGAL IN CERTAIN PARTS OF THE WORLD!

VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED!

Might be too dark but I just love this picture, yes, night swimming.

La Familia Of College

Mani, Remon, Navin

Our special ingredient for the chocolate mousse is... BOOGERS AND SNOT!

Navin On The Look Out For Cleavage

BUDAK INDIA!!!!

This bloody Fiat 600 didn't want to give way, therefore I was going 40km on the right lane.

April Fool's Day, Arika, Jasmine, Gillian And Anna kena sooo much spamming that this crap came out on my screen... Didn't even know this shit can happen

Nuff Said

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Excuse Me Goes A Long Way

These are the little things that most and when I say most I mean 70% or more of Malaysians rather not say;

Please
Thank You
Excuse Me

Ever realised?



In the kitchen I become someone else. I want to get work done and I want it done fast. I like to take charge of everything there and order people and assign them to specific jobs so we can finish faster.

Narcissistic moment....

Someone compared me to Gordon Ramsey, but I haven't gone to his level yet.


In the kitchen I expect proper grooming, if you have long hair, I'd rather you make sure all your hair is in your chef hat or you dont handle food at all.


Those 3 words on top can go a long way, be generous with those words.


Will load up pictures of class soon.


Rainbow pissed me off for 2 days straight. She likes to brush people aside instead of saying something like

EXCUSE ME

The first 3 times she did that I was still calm but the fourth time when she wanted to open the chiller and she just puts her hand on my right knee and brushes me aside I really got pissed off.


I was in pain and on the knees it's double the pain. See, I have a gash on that knee and it's been hurting like a bitch. Imagine the pain when she just did that. Thanks, It's Just What I Needed.



I went for night swimming yesterday. It was AWESOME!! That too I'll upload pictures

I've Been Massive Attacked

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up