It's All Relative, It's All Understood

Well, I'm going back to my roots on this one.


This is mainly for my mum

Recently my mum asked me to pick a laptop on the Dell website. Being me, when my parents ask me to choose what I want when they pay for it, I always pick the cheapest thing.


I feel we come from a lower middle class family and I hate to be a burden to my parents. Especially to my mum. She works hard and never complains. Okay maybe a few times on how we don't help out with the chores, but she's entitled to that.


So about the laptop, I picked a cheap one and she told me to get a better one as it would be good for the long run. I don't know but I just feel guilty about it. A part of me wanted to tell her that I don't need it if she needed to fork out the amount that was needed for the better model.


Since my early teenage life, I know my parents have it hard and I try to ease their burden by getting a part time job during my holidays to pay for my daily needs. I just hate the I idea that I have to be a burden to my parents. I feel bad, I feel guilty.


Yes there are times I have misunderstandings with them, especially my mum. All this while we'd get into a heated exchange of words. It's only recently I realised that how much she's done for the three of us.


My sister and her University fees, plane tickets, allowance and her usual needs. I feel she cant seem to understand the situation that she's putting mum and dad in.

My brother, the somewhat spoilt on in the family. He too does not realise the burden he's giving them.


My parents too play a part in this. I noticed, we would want something, if it's really not necessary they'd say no. But we'd somehow make them feel guilty about not getting it for us and they ending working hard just so we're happy.


Very self centred of us isn't it. I somehow hate myself for all the burdens I've given my parents... Especially you Amma


I'm Sorry & I Love You

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up