No Sleep

I'm seriously beginning to hate going to bed. I end up think too much about everything.. the fuck man.

But there was only one topic that was always lingering there.. dammit.. I need professional help man.

Was given a room to stay at yesterday night because was working back to back. Damn sad, stoning in the room alone with a beer and a cig. Just a short post. Hope to start blogging more often

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

To Set Free The Mind

Yes, it's been too long. It's been almost a year since I last blogged. Why the sudden urge to blog?

Simple

I've come to realize that the blog has become dead. People rarely come to visit it making it a great place to express myself. At least for the time being. Can't really do this on Facebook; people would think that I'm a emo baby. And frankly I hate it when people post up every fucking thing on Facebook. As for Twitter? Too many people follow me and again, people have been complaining that my tweets have been a tad bit emo. So much for freedom of speech huh?


Where to begin? I've done soo much since May 23rd 2011. I've graduated, I've enjoyed nine months of freedom, I met someone that i want to be with and I was alive.


Funny how things change really fast.. Started my degree and continued on working, just to get my mind off you. Mum thinks that the lack of sleep is because of work. I shrug off her claims that I'm tired. I don't feel tired; I'm just pretty darn upset.


Decided to skip Commerce class and MICE management to get a start on assignments and continue on the notes from where I last left off. Assignment almost done and notes haven't even started. I keep procrastinating and finding other things to do. 3 hours till the next class. Try to finish up in 2 hours grab lunch and off to the next class.


Frankly I don't know if I want to talk about you.. there is still that fear that you might read this.. that you might think that I'm a pathetic piece of shit. God, I hate letting people in. Everytime I let someone in, I get hurt, every fucking time.  Well not today, as much as I want to pour my heart out here, not today.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

You Can Never Go Wrong With Linkin Park

Hey peeps. Things when more and more south. Frankly I rather not talk about it. But for the record I would most probably die alone.

So didn't that much since the last post. Though this one thing has been bugging me. What happened to you? You changed tremendously. At first I thought I wouldn't care but honestly, I value your friendship.

But you, why do you have to act like a bitch suddenly? Why do you have to be anti social, to be "busy" when we call you and ask you out? Text me and then when I reply you just ignore it? Seriously what is up with that?

Dude, seriously if you have some issues with us or any individual one of us (not sure if that sentence is right) then tell us. This whole cold war thing, it is stupid and freaking immature. Biar la, that is up to you.

Make life easier for everyone. Coz you are making a few of us worried. Make us wait like idiots and later on you will stab us. Jeez, 4 more weeks. I dont have to see most of you people. I cant wait.

You know who you are... at least I hope you do

Going back to the roots of my music... Linkin Park

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Drives & Music

First of, Happy Wesak Day to all my Buddhist buddies and readers (if there even readers)

so today was a public holiday and a Tuesday. Didn't make the day any different. Woke up at around 1 in the noon. This is because of my sleep cycle being screwed, I usually sleep like at 4 or 5 AM. So woke up watched some tv.

Went for a drive to get my mind off things. I found some really peaceful places in Bangsar to just gather my thoughts. It felt great I guess. But when I met up with some friends at the basketball, when I met up with civilization again, I felt somewhat lost and unhappy.

This is hitting me harder than I expected. I need to get it over with. I'm not too sure what the hell am I fearing. Just thinking about it makes me realize how pathetic I am.

It's 3.47AM now, all that is keeping me calm now are these

Questions has always been there for me. It is the perfect song to calm down to.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Contemplation

I rushed it. I don't think I'm cut out for it. I sub-consciously do it and not realize until it's too late. If anything it's my fault. I am stupid.

There is so many things I want to write right now. But it's not the time for it yet

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Crashing Down

I don't know what to say, I'm frustrated and pretty much just disappointed with myself. I do things without thinking about the consequences and this isn't doing me any good.

I really can't wait to get over with this term. To get over with this part of my life. Two more months, roughly another 5 weeks till this is all over.

Mani plans on going to Langkawi again. Frankly it is just what the doctor ordered.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Long Ago

Agreed, I have been neglecting my blog yet again. Lot of things in my hands.. or at least it feels like that.

Shit, I'm just looking forward to June. I just looking forward of ending my Diploma. I can't stand everything that is going on with these people. Way too much drama man.

Over the break I was back working in Chilli's and met some really awesome people. One of em thought me about patience. I've never seen him upset and or angry unless its something really close to his heart.

The next two months that is pretty much what I'll be doing. Mask on yo!

It's upsetting that how we once used to all good friends and now there is a cold war. There are walls, there are restrictions, there are people acting indifferent to what has happened. There are people who have changed all together. All six terms there were drama but the last three terms is where all of the dramas come from.

Listening to some mashups. And I loik!!

Muse vs Pendulum... it fits really well

This vid is like when you are out having an awesome club party or something... sheet!! I wanna go for a pendulum concert!

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up