You Can Never Go Wrong With Linkin Park

Hey peeps. Things when more and more south. Frankly I rather not talk about it. But for the record I would most probably die alone.

So didn't that much since the last post. Though this one thing has been bugging me. What happened to you? You changed tremendously. At first I thought I wouldn't care but honestly, I value your friendship.

But you, why do you have to act like a bitch suddenly? Why do you have to be anti social, to be "busy" when we call you and ask you out? Text me and then when I reply you just ignore it? Seriously what is up with that?

Dude, seriously if you have some issues with us or any individual one of us (not sure if that sentence is right) then tell us. This whole cold war thing, it is stupid and freaking immature. Biar la, that is up to you.

Make life easier for everyone. Coz you are making a few of us worried. Make us wait like idiots and later on you will stab us. Jeez, 4 more weeks. I dont have to see most of you people. I cant wait.

You know who you are... at least I hope you do

Going back to the roots of my music... Linkin Park

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Crashing Down

I don't know what to say, I'm frustrated and pretty much just disappointed with myself. I do things without thinking about the consequences and this isn't doing me any good.

I really can't wait to get over with this term. To get over with this part of my life. Two more months, roughly another 5 weeks till this is all over.

Mani plans on going to Langkawi again. Frankly it is just what the doctor ordered.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Long Ago

Agreed, I have been neglecting my blog yet again. Lot of things in my hands.. or at least it feels like that.

Shit, I'm just looking forward to June. I just looking forward of ending my Diploma. I can't stand everything that is going on with these people. Way too much drama man.

Over the break I was back working in Chilli's and met some really awesome people. One of em thought me about patience. I've never seen him upset and or angry unless its something really close to his heart.

The next two months that is pretty much what I'll be doing. Mask on yo!

It's upsetting that how we once used to all good friends and now there is a cold war. There are walls, there are restrictions, there are people acting indifferent to what has happened. There are people who have changed all together. All six terms there were drama but the last three terms is where all of the dramas come from.

Listening to some mashups. And I loik!!

Muse vs Pendulum... it fits really well

This vid is like when you are out having an awesome club party or something... sheet!! I wanna go for a pendulum concert!

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Expensive February

Its the last day of February and yet another end to another month of 2011. Time is passing by a little bit too fast. I mean it's already week 8 in term 5 and well the exams draw closer. Penang draws closer. Still short on cash.

I have to admit February has been the most expensive month for me so far. As easy as money comes in its as easy as money comes out. Today morning I had Our 50 in my wallet. Now I'm left with a little less than 20. It supposed to last till Friday. Need to go to Chilli's and see if I can still work over there. Extra income is more than welcomed.

Our food promotion event is finally over. It went well even through all the nonsense that we had to go through. Still pissed over a few things but I'd rather just let it go. Right now I just hate the fact that some people take random pms or whatever that person has and shoots either me or Wayne. When I'm rude back she says I'm always rude to her. Dude I dont even want to imagine what she would be like if she was pregnant

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

I Agree

I have to admit, you are right. I do have too much at my hands. I really wish I could just unload it on others. But then again, that would be too easy huh? What you see is the tip of the iceberg. I'd rather not burden anyone by tell about ALL of my problems.

Taking on too many responsibilities at once is never smart. But then again, never saying no or asking for help is not any better.

I'm not denying and I'm not defending. For once I can say I'm agreeing with you. But did you ask and see why? If I did go, I would have really been screwed by the family.

I'm sorry I'm not the person that you expect me to be.

I'm sorry that I'm too full of myself

I'm sorry that my ego is too big

I'm sorry I can't fulfil my promises

I'm sorry I can't keep my word

February is giving me nothing but trouble yo. It's only been 15 days in and well, just keeping cool and getting whatever I can done.

I really love this picture... cant tell if she's real or not

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

You Dont Need A Blog

It's really contradicting to say so but yea I made up my mind and I'm not gonna privatize my blog. Its for the world to see and I really dont care if you do.

A buddy of mine is having issues. I mean if it was one of the ordinary joe's I'd ask the fella if he's alright but this fella would just reply "I'm okay" Sadly, he's a horrible liar. Like seriously horrible liar.

Why would you have a blog which everyone knows about then change the link and not tell any of your friends? Wait, lemme rephrase; family members? I mean that's what you claim right? Just curious.

I mean if you dont want anyone to read youur blog then make it private kan? Lagi, when people ask for you link, don't say "I don't know" or something like that. Just tell them straight in their face, "I dont want to give you" dont need to sugar coat it and shit yo.

I'm Just Saying, BRAAHH

Well I had a rather productive holiday. I did pretty much nothing other than visit people's house for open houses and sketching. I feel my inpiration flowing when I sketch. Soo much to sketch but soo useless at it

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Depriving My Blog Of Updates

Jeez, I really forgot about the blog eh? Can't help it. To many things on my plate, that I'd rather just use twitter to put up a quick post.


Yes, there is alot to do and not much time to do stuff. I cant say the restaurant event as something to do or as a pain in the ass. It's pretty much covered thanks to a certain gentleman... you know who you are. But its the other things, tons of assignments and paperwork. Group assignments which require video presentations and shit.


And what the hell is up with English? Seriously she has issues yo!


About two to three weeks ago I had a listen to Pendulums songs from the new album... I felt like the good ol days, just nothing but drum & bass.

I give you Immersion

What we have here are three music videos from their awesome album... awesome awesome album....


After listening to this number I told myself "I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THIS ALBUM!"
One hour later I was seriously damn blardy happy


From watching this you can tell that the part 2 is gonna be much more awesome.. its like everything has a sequal in their music videos


Feel the pain this yo.... this too would most probably have a prequel...


This is all for now.. Mr Zikri is in class Kseeyoubai


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Powerhouses

The first week is about everyone, all are curious how one another are doing, what happened in the 3 months they did not see each other, curious on relationship statuses, what's hot and what's not

Second week, die Hexen has arrived. Everyone is under the spell. Everyone is under the assumption that it is on top of the world. It belongs on top of the world and no one can question it.

Slowly things would go back to how it was, the long gossip sessions, the everyday drama and what not. Der Habicht wanted to stand strong and stand firm with his decision. His choice of avoiding die Kries der Hexen. I hope that he's right this time.

Die Kries der Hexen and their addiction to the Hexerei, which consumes the very essence of their once human souls. Even when they seem like they are doing something good... this the other way...

As for die verrückt Förster, he'll do what he does best. Try and not give a rats ass about anyone here. Dodge bullets, get work done and avoid drama at all costs.

Miss You =)

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Guilt

It was immature, it was stupid and I should have know better. I shouldn't done it no matter what the reason. I want to start a new year with a new me. I don't want to destroy my resolution so early in the year... it's not even been a month yet.

To believe,

To be strong,

To outgrow it

As of Monday, shit's gonna really hit the fan. Classroom occupancy will be at full house or at 99% capacity. Noise factors and gossip factors are going to go through the roof. I'll just have to do what I do best.

Got really frustrated today, our restaurant professional activity seemed to be going in circles with each director making child-like errors and decisions. With abit of the fickle mindedness with really ticked me off. But whats the point of getting all worked up for this huh?

Only people I feel soo relaxed with are Ainin, Jeng & You (you know who you are).

I went yumcha with Ainin and KaJeng a few nights back and it was really fun to catch up with them. It's been quite some time since I met them. I was just thinking, other than Mark; these two people are my only friends from high school. That are my age that is. The rest have "disappeared" from my life.

Note to self... deleted useless people from facebook

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

What's Up With That?

Been actually studying lately and mind you I've actually learned some things and find certain subjects easier.


I'm not talking about anyone in particular, it's just me thinking out, why are people sensitive? I've changed myself to adapt to sensitive people, not to get on their bad side. But in spite of that, there seems to be more nonsense popping up.


I somewhat feel upset about Remon's case. Not upset for him but at him. I think I've told you before, bro; just tell me.


But lately, you too have changed, reason why I don't ask you is because you shrug off my question and say you are okay. Mon, you are not a good liar.


I guess its the season where everyone is disappointing one another eh?


I know I'm disappointed with Aiman.


You are too thick headed, persistent and stupid. Missing practical classes? Really dude?

Honestly, I wont be surprised if I don't see you in class next term

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Still Wondering

I don't know why, but I really wish I had some kind of disorder. I mean it would make my life soo much more interesting.



Came back from service. I puked out what I ate, brilliant. I had a feeling the chicken wasn't cooked properly. By puking it proved to be so.


I'm just looking forward to Pangkor, seriously I haven't even gone for the freaking interview and I'm planning everything already. Relatives said Pangkor Island Resort is quite dead and its just for relaxation. Heck after August all I want to do is relax.


Gimme a guitar, bottle of scotch, a futsal ball, my sketch pad and my MP3 player. I will be soo dayum happy.


I have no idea why I'm blogging. I'm bored


These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

I Hate Jams, But Peanut Butter & Jam Is Okay

I 've leaving college early, I love avoiding the Taylors jam, the jam we have within the college itself...

But after that, on the Federal highway, you just get sucked in to this sea of cars. And you are only gonna get out of it two hours later.

Yesterday that's exactly what happened. I usually turn out at PJ and avoid the whole jam at Federal highway but on this Friday, the jam was seriously bad. I turn into PJ to be stuck at another jam. Took a turn into the industrial area. Got stuck there in another jam.

I said to myself

screw it. I can't avoid it

I parked the car at the side of the road, I put down the windows abit and turned of the engine. Moved to the passenger's seat and took at nap. Put my alarm for 8pm when the roads will be clear due to everyone breaking fast. Worked like a charm. Next time, I'm just gonna stay in college till 8pm.

Something is missing, I dont know what, but it just is

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Times Like These

With the way how things are going, I just want to hide away. There is way too much shit on my plate.

The usual amount of bad luck I get in one year has been crammed and blown straight to my face in the likes of August. I feel really tired. Sleeping never helps, I'm in trouble in one way or another.


I need a hand. I need help. I need someone, anyone.


I'm way over my head. First thing to do is to take care of this little problem. If what he says is correct and she made it formal, I am fucked. Can you blame me? I didn't sleep for 2 days because of that damn assignment and at the brink of tears because I felt soo useless, I just couldn't figure out how to get rid of the bugs in the video.


Arika and Mani helped but I was really upset. Tears were there, I tried hard to hide them. You give me this choice, fail one or fail 5. I was mad, all I asked for was 2 minutes. Go up, pass the files and come back down. You didn't give.


Somehow I'm the bad guy in all this huh?

Got A Light Bulb Full Of Anger
And I Can Switch It On And Off
Situations It Can Be So Bright, I Can't Believe
How Pathetic I Can Be 

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Who What Where, Pikachu

I was meaning to update yesterday but I kindda ran out of time. It was getting late and I had to wake up early. I actually had something to blog about yesterday.

Today it's so my blog doesn't look dead as half the blogs on my links (no offense to you guys)


Age is catching up with me, I feel the burn from playing too much basketball. After yet another Tuesday basketball session, I felt my thigh strained, the same toe which I almost broke from the last week of basketball go stiff and painful and aches and pains at general places. Maybe it aint age but more on time to warm up before a game. Now I'm thinking whether I should tourture my body some more by playing futal later today.


It's ridiculously fast don't you agree? It's already term 4 and we're already on our 3rd week. Another 6 more weeks of college to go. Then training.


Speaking of which, for the second industrial training I've been meaning to go to a resort. So after talking to Remon, I've decided to goto Pangkor Laut Resort as my first choice, Pelangi Spa & Resort as my second choice and Thanjung Rhu Resort as my third choice. 3 months of working in paradise but there are setbacks. I won't be down for my birthday and I wont be down for Deepavali. Two of the biggest holidays I look forward to.

Yes My Birthday Is A Public Holiday, Just The MAN Feels That I'm Too Cool For Everyone To Celebrate My Birthday So We Keep It Under Wraps

Besides think of the danger to my life by parading around the streets, last thing we need is another JFK incident.

I have lots to say about everything, how I feel, what I think of some people but it's not worth it, no matter what, nobody changes. They NEVER change, there is no point on continuously trying got get that in their thick skull. They won't help.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Write The Future (DH vs DC Edition)

Wayne Remon has the ball, can't be holding it too long to ponder on his next move, quick pass to Esteban Manikandan (Canavaro), he takes the ball side steps the striker avoids the tackle from the midfielder and leaves the defender on the ground as he dribbles past him too. 1 vs 1 situation with the keeper, the keeper dives in and gets the ball.


Seriously I was stunned but Canavaro's superb skill to dribble past the whole team. The game felt like some World Cup final match, the atmosphere that it was giving, just everything about it. You'd just want to give your A game in this.

Futsal at college, indoor court, hard court. My favourite. Play conditions? Night, weather; beautiful.

World Cup feeling but Champion's League play, home and away game. Lost our home game but won our away game.

We had the likes of Iker Cassilas (I can't remember the lecturer's name), Esteban Canavaro (Mani), Vidic Teoh (Adrian), Mr. Gopi Puyol (Just without the Sunsilk hair), Wayne Remon (but played midfield), Moxx Ballack (Rainer), Derek Messi and Navin van Persie.

Black Friday vs DC United
Home game we were leading from what appeared to be a keeper error after van Persie headed the ball into the box and the keeper was dumbfounded by the pass and it somehow went it. DH United somehow let the goal get ahead of them and were lazy on the defense against the counter attack. Which let to Black Friday conceding to late goals.

On the second leg, we conceded an early goal. Early in the game there were many chances, such as Esteban Manikandan's sublime dribbling skills against the whole DC United team. Just after Black Friday conceded van Persie took a shot that curled for the top corner but was just centimetres too high. A quick counter attack engineered by Wayne Remon who ended up having a great finish for the attack. The final attack and time running out, Cassilas throws the ball far and wide just slightly above DC United's defender to van Persie who was waiting for it. He' chests it down and with his back towards goal be blasts it to kingdom come and there we have it the winning goal.




For the love of the game, it was most amount of fun Black Friday had in a long time. And we are really looking forward to the next game, next week.

Unfortunately for now, we're just worried on the aches and pains. I can't walk fast. I have to walk slowly because my calfs, hamstrings, knees and groin muscles are worked to the bone. When I walk, it feels like jelly.




These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Fluck Fluckedy Fluck

It Speaks For Itself, Go Headbutt A Bullet

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

It Came From Langkawi Part 1

First up I'd like to congratulate myself for this is my 200th post for Thoughts Of The Illogic. Where did the time and posts go?


Anywhoots, It's finally here, part one of a four part (I think)

This post is JUST for the first day...
A little note, 90% of this pictures are candid and not posed. Dunno why I felt like saying that. Don't like it? TOO BAD LA! YOU GO LANGKAWI THEN TAKE PICTURES YOU WANT!! Pfftt... people these days....

Remon And That "I Want A Blow Job" Face

Took This Pic Of Frans, Seriously Like Some Album Of A K-Pop Album
FYI, he wasn't posing. Heck he didn't even know the picture was taken till later that day

I was full of excitement, this is gonna sound so gay, but I was excited because this was gonna be my first time on a plane. My first time flying. Arika said I looked like some Backstreet Boy, or was that me who said it.... should have updated earlier

Don't think I'd forget this plane, as this plane was the first plane which I've flown in. The feeling when we took off. I was like a little girl... literally. Airbus A320

Alien Fingers

TERRORIST!!

So after the 45 minute flight from the LCCT to Langkawi airport, we took at cab to our motel.

Proud to be "Budget" Dutch

Most of us felt abit tired and the rest such as Remon and myself wanted to show our colors and a fine job we did, summore 2 for 30 bucks... I call it a bargain!

So as usual, the guys are done changing and what not and standing outside for a good 20 minutes while the girls powder their noses. We were wondering whether we should go for the Sunset cruise, because it had just rained, it wouldnt have been safe

But lucky us the skies cleared up and off we headed for the Sunset Cruise. Imagine, RM50 got us buffet style food, free flow alcohol and treatment rightful for a king. I kept telling myself it saying this trip was a day trip and Sunset Cruise was the only thing we were doing, it would be soo damn worth it.



The yacht was really chilling and the music too. The highlight of this picture? Remon's face. He seemed to have that face everytime he had a glass with him




This would have been the highlights of the cruise. Shark feeding as the crew member called it. They layout this net behind the boat and cruise at a low speed and we get on the nets and hang on. Seriously the feeling was awesome, and to top it off

Sir Can I Get You A Beer To Drink?

Never did beer taste soo good. It was the beer of relaxation, everything tasted better.

By the looks of our faces you can see how much we enjoyed the damn cruise. Mani and Frans tak boleh belah, acting poyo looking here and there.

Mani just didn't like this picture. To me it was like some body sculpting ad, from left, before, in thee middle, during and on the right, after.


Mani says give him 6 months and he'll have packs too... I plan to make mine more obvious by then.

This has to be one of the most awesome-est pictures of the trip. He has this model/porn star look

All you can eat buffet and the food was *MOUTH WATERING!!*

It can't be called a Sunset Cruise with out a sunset right? Well on that day there wasn't much of a sunset either but the lighting and the scenery was to die for. Thank dog for my awesome photography skill that kills and makes you spill near the window sill that I just drilled... lame I know

THAT PRETTY MUCH CONCLUDES PART 1 OF LANGGA FREAKING WHEEE
But For Part 1 These Are The Pictures Of The Day

Seriously, what would we do without Frans, I sure as hell know I miss him now

ON ANOTHER NOTE
Conversation With Derek

| Steve | says:
i love you
[i]J w e n .[/i] [c=4]BLEH.[/c] says:
same
| Steve | says:
awww
lets hav a baby
[i]J w e n .[/i] [c=4]BLEH.[/c] says:
let's have ten!
| Steve | says:
OOO
boy girl boy girl boy girl boy girl boy girl
in tht order
[i]J w e n .[/i] [c=4]BLEH.[/c] says:
no we should have girl boy boy girl boy then girl girl then boy girl boy
| Steve | says:
okay
that works too

Me, Derek

If you've seen these pictures somewhere
else rather than my or Remon's Facebook account
please do inform us, as you know copying pictures without ones notification is no nice,
stealing is not nice

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

OMG THIS BLOG ISN'T DEAD!!

Yes I haven't updated in like a million years. I realised. And I'm sorry, Bubu, I truly am.


With industrial training over and done with I've been "busy" (playing Heatseeker, futsal etc).

Anyhu what has happened over these few weeks? The MonkeyGirl a.k.a. the sister is back. Thats the bad news.

Good? I've got the keys of the Monster a.k.a. Volvo 740 GLT (Grand Luxury TURBO) and trust me I'm in love.


Went to Langkawi and well.... I really need to blog about that... maybe one or three posts JUST on that. Anywhoots, will upload them pics tomorrow promise!

Here's a sneek peek on whats to come

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Current Racial Issue

Basketball - Chinese
Football - Malay
Cricket - Indian

I'm actually really cool about racism in sports because it builds character but after today, it just really ticked me off.


Why is race such a big thing?
Why is it just because the guy in your team has a darker skin colour you cant pass to him?
Why must you speak a different language than that one person who doesn't understand it?
Why?


Okay we play racist basketball in the park but it's among friends and its like okay because we don't mean harm. We don't mean what we say and it aint harsh.


I got called today for Taylors basketball team selection. I was really excited, so much so that I ended up not eating lunch.


I went to the court and well this was the situation;

30 people
25 are chinese
4 are africans
1 is me

The coach felt ALL of us understood mandarin and spoke in mandarin the WHOLE time. Only when he wanted something done he'd talk to us in English. Don't we deserve to understand what you say too?

To me it gave the impression that he already made his pick for the team and it was all Chinese.


Later during game, the only time i touched the ball was on rebound, they felt I wasn't worth the pass even though I was wide open. I fought for the ball with what I thought was the opponent and found out my own teammate was trying to take it from me. That is ridiculous.

I mean if you really dont want me to play then just say so. Don't treat me like an animal.


I just feel the way I was treated was unfair, the african guys got the ball everytime they asked for it. My shouts went to deaf ears.


So much for playing for college huh?


If I offended anyone with this racial post I'm truly sorry but I'm pretty upset with what happened

It Has Happened *Sigh*

It Has Really Happened..


| NK | says:
mcm mana?
dude
i love alexis too
but wht can we do?
Francis says:
I've decided
to quit
taylor's
and
quit diploma
i'm gonna stick to alexis
| NK | says:
wtf
dude
tell me ur joking
Francis says:
i love that place man
| NK | says:
DUDE
| NK | says:
you okay ar?
Francis says:
i dont know how to explain
but
yeah
i've decided to do it
| NK | says:
wait
lemme get this straight
ur quiiting college coz u love alexis
and plan to work there?
Francis says:
yeah
i've decided

Frans Fiscal Has Left Us...

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up