Thoughts Of The Illogic

You Can Never Go Wrong With Linkin Park

2011-05-23T02:10:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps. Things when more and more south. Frankly I rather not talk about it. But for the record I would most probably die alone.

So didn't that much since the last post. Though this one thing has been bugging me. What happened to you? You changed tremendously. At first I thought I wouldn't care but honestly, I value your friendship.

But you, why do you have to act like a bitch suddenly? Why do you have to be anti social, to be "busy" when we call you and ask you out? Text me and then when I reply you just ignore it? Seriously what is up with that?

Dude, seriously if you have some issues with us or any individual one of us (not sure if that sentence is right) then tell us. This whole cold war thing, it is stupid and freaking immature. Biar la, that is up to you.

Make life easier for everyone. Coz you are making a few of us worried. Make us wait like idiots and later on you will stab us. Jeez, 4 more weeks. I dont have to see most of you people. I cant wait.

You know who you are... at least I hope you do

Going back to the roots of my music... Linkin Park

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Drives & Music

2011-05-18T03:32:00.002+08:00

First of, Happy Wesak Day to all my Buddhist buddies and readers (if there even readers)

so today was a public holiday and a Tuesday. Didn't make the day any different. Woke up at around 1 in the noon. This is because of my sleep cycle being screwed, I usually sleep like at 4 or 5 AM. So woke up watched some tv.

Went for a drive to get my mind off things. I found some really peaceful places in Bangsar to just gather my thoughts. It felt great I guess. But when I met up with some friends at the basketball, when I met up with civilization again, I felt somewhat lost and unhappy.

This is hitting me harder than I expected. I need to get it over with. I'm not too sure what the hell am I fearing. Just thinking about it makes me realize how pathetic I am.

It's 3.47AM now, all that is keeping me calm now are these

Questions has always been there for me. It is the perfect song to calm down to.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Contemplation

2011-05-17T02:42:00.003+08:00

I rushed it. I don't think I'm cut out for it. I sub-consciously do it and not realize until it's too late. If anything it's my fault. I am stupid.

There is so many things I want to write right now. But it's not the time for it yet

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Crashing Down

2011-04-28T11:01:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to say, I'm frustrated and pretty much just disappointed with myself. I do things without thinking about the consequences and this isn't doing me any good.

I really can't wait to get over with this term. To get over with this part of my life. Two more months, roughly another 5 weeks till this is all over.

Mani plans on going to Langkawi again. Frankly it is just what the doctor ordered.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Long Ago

2011-04-12T03:53:00.002+08:00

Agreed, I have been neglecting my blog yet again. Lot of things in my hands.. or at least it feels like that.

Shit, I'm just looking forward to June. I just looking forward of ending my Diploma. I can't stand everything that is going on with these people. Way too much drama man.

Over the break I was back working in Chilli's and met some really awesome people. One of em thought me about patience. I've never seen him upset and or angry unless its something really close to his heart.

The next two months that is pretty much what I'll be doing. Mask on yo!

It's upsetting that how we once used to all good friends and now there is a cold war. There are walls, there are restrictions, there are people acting indifferent to what has happened. There are people who have changed all together. All six terms there were drama but the last three terms is where all of the dramas come from.

Listening to some mashups. And I loik!!

Muse vs Pendulum... it fits really well

This vid is like when you are out having an awesome club party or something... sheet!! I wanna go for a pendulum concert!

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Carling Cup Final

2011-02-28T15:31:00.001+08:00

Well it's the third time I've experienced this. It's getting way too familiar. Third time I've supported my team and they reached the finals just to crash and burn.

First with France,

Then Holland,

Now Arsenal

Some reason I was really upset over their loss in the Carling Cup. I guess being a fan for soo long has got me to be really attached to the team. Really expected the a win but then again I really underestimated Birmingham City.

Ben Foster Is A Monster

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Expensive February

2011-02-28T15:20:00.002+08:00

Its the last day of February and yet another end to another month of 2011. Time is passing by a little bit too fast. I mean it's already week 8 in term 5 and well the exams draw closer. Penang draws closer. Still short on cash.

I have to admit February has been the most expensive month for me so far. As easy as money comes in its as easy as money comes out. Today morning I had Our 50 in my wallet. Now I'm left with a little less than 20. It supposed to last till Friday. Need to go to Chilli's and see if I can still work over there. Extra income is more than welcomed.

Our food promotion event is finally over. It went well even through all the nonsense that we had to go through. Still pissed over a few things but I'd rather just let it go. Right now I just hate the fact that some people take random pms or whatever that person has and shoots either me or Wayne. When I'm rude back she says I'm always rude to her. Dude I dont even want to imagine what she would be like if she was pregnant

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Painful Painful Lesson

2011-02-24T02:12:00.002+08:00

our first game resulted in defeat. We lost 3-0

I blame my self in a way. Confidence was at an all time low. Only chance I got was offside.

Top it off I got injured. Race against time to get recovered by Friday. A day I'm somewhat not looking forward to.

Anyhu just about done with editing for today. Two more day left for editing. Rate I'm going I dont think we would have enough... At least 20 I'm set.

Gonna crash will update soo... I hope

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Long Long Hours

2011-02-17T04:37:00.002+08:00

Had a good day, except for French, I really don't think the results for French this term isn't gonna be that great.

After class pick her up and took her to college as everyone wanted to meet her. And my oh my did Wayne and Mani have fun. Babi ask questions after questions about all sorts. We didn't spend long together but just seeing her did my heart good.

After that, futsal! I really didn't want to play but what to do. Can't keep a guy from his sports eh?

It felt really good to run with the ball on even surface. But in a few wonderful goals but missed quite a few opportunities.

That's all for now... half time over and we're down 1- 0 lets go GUNNERS!

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

I Agree

2011-02-16T02:00:00.003+08:00

I have to admit, you are right. I do have too much at my hands. I really wish I could just unload it on others. But then again, that would be too easy huh? What you see is the tip of the iceberg. I'd rather not burden anyone by tell about ALL of my problems.

Taking on too many responsibilities at once is never smart. But then again, never saying no or asking for help is not any better.

I'm not denying and I'm not defending. For once I can say I'm agreeing with you. But did you ask and see why? If I did go, I would have really been screwed by the family.

I'm sorry I'm not the person that you expect me to be.

I'm sorry that I'm too full of myself

I'm sorry that my ego is too big

I'm sorry I can't fulfil my promises

I'm sorry I can't keep my word

February is giving me nothing but trouble yo. It's only been 15 days in and well, just keeping cool and getting whatever I can done.

I really love this picture... cant tell if she's real or not

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

You Dont Need A Blog

2011-02-09T09:06:00.003+08:00

It's really contradicting to say so but yea I made up my mind and I'm not gonna privatize my blog. Its for the world to see and I really dont care if you do.

A buddy of mine is having issues. I mean if it was one of the ordinary joe's I'd ask the fella if he's alright but this fella would just reply "I'm okay" Sadly, he's a horrible liar. Like seriously horrible liar.

Why would you have a blog which everyone knows about then change the link and not tell any of your friends? Wait, lemme rephrase; family members? I mean that's what you claim right? Just curious.

I mean if you dont want anyone to read youur blog then make it private kan? Lagi, when people ask for you link, don't say "I don't know" or something like that. Just tell them straight in their face, "I dont want to give you" dont need to sugar coat it and shit yo.

I'm Just Saying, BRAAHH

Well I had a rather productive holiday. I did pretty much nothing other than visit people's house for open houses and sketching. I feel my inpiration flowing when I sketch. Soo much to sketch but soo useless at it

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

2011-02-02T03:35:00.000+08:00

Thinking of making my blog private.. I'd rather keep my thoughts to myself than to the world. Don't know why just like doing so

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

You People

2011-02-02T03:23:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Not a single call or text other than for work or their own benefits. Jeez nothing at all. Not surprised really and don't really care. They can all die for all I care. I mean really you'd expect it to be like I respect you and you respect me. There is no such thing in this dog eat dog work.

Everyone has their own agenda and plans. I'm currently in a tight spot and don't really know who to talk to about it. I really need help but am too afraid and embarrassed to ask for it. Can't blame me... Male ego talking

This should be a memorable post as its my first ever post typed from my very own blackberry.. I didn't feel like blogging until I was on my bed... That seems to be the case all the time.

Had a good workout playing basketball. Seriously think there is something wrong with my calfs and my legs. Abit of sports and they feel like giving way like as if I did an extreme workout. Even right now my legs are aching

Aw shit... I think I'm getting old

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Depriving My Blog Of Updates

2011-01-28T09:03:00.002+08:00

Jeez, I really forgot about the blog eh? Can't help it. To many things on my plate, that I'd rather just use twitter to put up a quick post.

Yes, there is alot to do and not much time to do stuff. I cant say the restaurant event as something to do or as a pain in the ass. It's pretty much covered thanks to a certain gentleman... you know who you are. But its the other things, tons of assignments and paperwork. Group assignments which require video presentations and shit.

And what the hell is up with English? Seriously she has issues yo!

About two to three weeks ago I had a listen to Pendulums songs from the new album... I felt like the good ol days, just nothing but drum & bass.

I give you Immersion

What we have here are three music videos from their awesome album... awesome awesome album....

After listening to this number I told myself "I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THIS ALBUM!"
One hour later I was seriously damn blardy happy

From watching this you can tell that the part 2 is gonna be much more awesome.. its like everything has a sequal in their music videos

Feel the pain this yo.... this too would most probably have a prequel...

This is all for now.. Mr Zikri is in class Kseeyoubai

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Powerhouses

2011-01-10T16:11:00.004+08:00

The first week is about everyone, all are curious how one another are doing, what happened in the 3 months they did not see each other, curious on relationship statuses, what's hot and what's not

Second week, die Hexen has arrived. Everyone is under the spell. Everyone is under the assumption that it is on top of the world. It belongs on top of the world and no one can question it.

Slowly things would go back to how it was, the long gossip sessions, the everyday drama and what not. Der Habicht wanted to stand strong and stand firm with his decision. His choice of avoiding die Kries der Hexen. I hope that he's right this time.

Die Kries der Hexen and their addiction to the Hexerei, which consumes the very essence of their once human souls. Even when they seem like they are doing something good... this the other way...

As for die verrückt Förster, he'll do what he does best. Try and not give a rats ass about anyone here. Dodge bullets, get work done and avoid drama at all costs.

Miss You =)

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Guilt

2011-01-08T00:45:00.003+08:00

It was immature, it was stupid and I should have know better. I shouldn't done it no matter what the reason. I want to start a new year with a new me. I don't want to destroy my resolution so early in the year... it's not even been a month yet.

To believe,

To be strong,

To outgrow it

As of Monday, shit's gonna really hit the fan. Classroom occupancy will be at full house or at 99% capacity. Noise factors and gossip factors are going to go through the roof. I'll just have to do what I do best.

Got really frustrated today, our restaurant professional activity seemed to be going in circles with each director making child-like errors and decisions. With abit of the fickle mindedness with really ticked me off. But whats the point of getting all worked up for this huh?

Only people I feel soo relaxed with are Ainin, Jeng & You (you know who you are).

I went yumcha with Ainin and KaJeng a few nights back and it was really fun to catch up with them. It's been quite some time since I met them. I was just thinking, other than Mark; these two people are my only friends from high school. That are my age that is. The rest have "disappeared" from my life.

Note to self... deleted useless people from facebook

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Spoil Me

2011-01-04T03:34:00.002+08:00

When I got back from Pangkor and looked at my Sony W350i, I thought to myself;

It's time I let him go

And yes I plan to join the monkeys in the BB clan. I want to get a blackberry

More specifically the Blackberry Curve 8520 =)

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Tanah Tumpahnya Darahku

2010-12-30T14:04:00.003+08:00

What more can I say? I am really proud of our national team. Two decades and we're finally finding our form, we're finally winning trophies.

These posters are old but these were the ones that gave me chills yo!

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Push.... Erase....

2010-12-25T01:43:00.001+08:00

Awww, I remember those pictures!

Wait, who's that?

Who? Him? Fuck If I Know

Yea Who Cares

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Less & Less

2010-12-24T01:02:00.000+08:00

I don’t want to go back to college; I don’t want to see them.

I shouldn’t feel soo hurt about this, but I am. And I can’t help it. We are “family” apparently.

I can never hold down a friend. I don’t blame them; I blame me. It always the same story; things goes well, drama here, drama there we get close then something like this happens and I somehow overreact.

I don’t know if I expect too much or too little from them but it ends up the same way. The list goes on regard all the people whom had this “friendship” with me.

The more I think bout it the more I want to see them less.

First day at Chapman’s bar. Boring as hell but have some good companions there; Alvin & Agnes.

Just wanted to get this off my chest.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Hey, It's Just Fucking Navin

2010-12-22T17:28:00.000+08:00

I feel upset, I feel angry and frankly I don’t have anyone who understands me. Remon made a good point earlier regarding the issue at hand. But I guess what everyone fails to understand is I have feeling too. Apparently I don’t have any. I’m just a inconsiderate bastard who disregards everyone else’s feelings.

I hate that feeling, that burning feeling in the chest. Just thinking more about it the more you have the feeling. I try to take a deep breath and try to “cool” myself.

When I hurt you, I apologized once I knew my mistake. Heck, I even felt guilty. I apologized and you just pretended like as if I didn’t. All of you did that. It really hurts. I was being sincere. Feels like you lied when you said you “care”; it doesn’t seem like you care now. Doesn’t seem like you ever cared

It’s like I’m a piece of garbage. An unimportant person. An expandable product. A expandable person.

“What Navin is upset?”

“Fuck, if I care, I mean it’s Navin; we all know how he is”

Remon made some sense, I agree, call me stubborn but I don’t want to pretend like nothing has happened. Would a rapist stop his deeds if he was just let off with a warning? They get whipped in jail and pretty much learn their lesson.

Remon told me to forget about it; I can’t. I give the I don’t care attitude but things like this I do care. I just guess some people are just too proud huh? I guess I’m an idiot with the attitude I have too huh?

Sorry Remon but I am staying put…

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Front Office

2010-12-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

Yes it's been ages yet again. Partly coz I'm lazy and due to down age of internet. So finally back to blogging;

So am still loving it at the front office. I am seriously considering majoring in front office later on.

I really had fun with some of my guest. I mean really had fun. For example

Mr. Ivan & Ms. Penny;

I have to say I really enjoy this couple. They were soo friendly and pretty much always in the mood to talk. My point of view with the front office it's hard to find easy to talk to guests like them. What was really an ice breaker was teaching them how to use their brand spanking new DSLR.

Reason for the DSLR is because Ms. Penny is expecting a little one soon. DSLR + baby = really nice pictures.

Miss them, due to the fact I havent found any other guest I can talk to like I talked to them.

Ms. Asther, Family & Friends;

My first guest with I had a relationship with. All thanks to Casey for assigning me to them. It was a lot of work but I really enjoyed the work. Helping them in any way I could.

I just felt somewhat helpless as I couldnt help Mr. Francis look for his beloved G9. I googled it and damn its a nice camera. Soo old school.

This is baby Haley; Mr Francis & Ms Asther's lil' bundle of joy

Ms Sarah & Mr Matthew;

I still remember Mr Matt saying to me;

if you're ever down at UK, gimme a ring, you ain't staying at no hotel, you're stayin with us. And if you don't I'll hunt you down

Australians who live at UK. He's a City supporter... Ergh.

Lastly, my Front office manager, Mr Shahrul, he left PLR yesterday to work for Airasia. Awesome guy, I never actually shed a tear for someone in the industry before this. Only worked under him for less than a month but he meant alot. He didn't act like a manager.

He acted like a friend, brother, father & a teacher.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

UPDATING

2010-12-14T13:57:00.000+08:00

UPDATING LATER AT NIGHT...

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Where'd You Go?

2010-12-01T23:35:00.002+08:00

I can honestly say, I'm enjoying my stint at the front office. I love just meeting the guest and talking to them. I can say my calling is at front office. NOT housekeeping.

I just need to brush up my social skills abit more. I realised I stutter, choke and mumble when I dont feel comfortable talking to the guest, or feel like I'm talking to a wall.

What's wrong?

What's bugging you?

Everything is good, but you still dont seem happy

Are you alright?

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

The L Feeling

2010-11-29T22:56:00.003+08:00

It was a bad joke. Well it didn't feel like it when I was scheming it.

Am I supposed to feel bad?

Apparently I'm an attention seeker. Frankly, I'm not going to deny or admit to it. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. Heck that's why I have my blog. Whatever, I first gave a shit when it hit the fan but now I couldn't give a fuck what anyone thinks of it and of me.

This picture. It's the cover of Thom Yorke's solo album, The Eraser. Only recently have I understood the picture. Well, my understanding. The Eraser is like anyone else, the waves represent life. Life doesn't in little amounts. It comes just as the picture shows. That's my understanding.

First day of front office. It went much better than I expected it to be. I think I'm going to really enjoy my last month here.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Railings & Drains

2010-11-19T20:50:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought things are gonna get better here, someone takes a frying pan and smacks me in the face.

Yesterday after getting to play futsal for the first time on the resort and after dinner; Leon and I forgot our keys. So I went over to Fisherman's Cove got the key from Remon and headed back.

Just as I reached the quarters I felt my left leg on air. Next thing I knew, I fell into a drain. One leg in one leg out. I would have broken the damn leg if I didnt use my hands to stop me from falling forward.

Screamed for help as I got out, Leon came immediately. I still remember the pain, the unbearable burning pain. Nick, Ho Kun, Ivan and Leon carried me to the chair outside the quarters. As they cleaned the would the pain was getting more and more unbearable. I just felt like dying.

Today, after a check up by a specialist and an xray, apparently I suffered from a minor hair-line fracture from the fall. Man it sucks to be me.

Painkillers are kicking in. I want to sleep. Nights

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Funky Dreams

2010-11-17T00:12:00.002+08:00

It's not once but quite a number of times; I've been having some really interesting dreams while here at Pangkor.

Interesting yet, hard to remember. I'm only able to remember fragments of it and from that I can just add up how peculiar the dream is.

Some had me talking to people I don't know but in somewhat in the resort background, not talking about anything, but something really important. It seemed important. There must be a hidden meaning to it. I just wonder what it is.

Most recent one I had is in the afternoon; I took a nap and dreamt that my parents and my younger brother were here on the resort and were about to head out to the Emerald Bay. After sending them off, I could see a tornado heading to the resort from the main island. Tried calling my parents but my phone was somehow in pieces.

Later on the dream felt like real because I was in the resort but leaning on my dad's Volvo. I'm wondering to myself how the heck did the car get here. Yes, I was thinking in my sleep. I mean really thinking logically.

It's a first time for me because I realised that when I start thinking logically in my sleep, the situation, layout and are suddenly change and I cant remember what I'm thinking about.

From what I can conclude, the part about family in my dreams could be due to homesickness. Funny, I don't feel homesick. I remember having dreams like that when I went for National Service.

As for the dreams getting more and more funkier; I think it's the power naps I'm taking

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

A Man With A Fork, In A World Of Soup

2010-11-11T00:07:00.002+08:00

Nuff Said

Came across this really funny data sheet that day... No offence ladies

Gonna go read a book.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

It's All Relative, It's All Understood

2010-11-08T00:51:00.002+08:00

Well, I'm going back to my roots on this one.

This is mainly for my mum

Recently my mum asked me to pick a laptop on the Dell website. Being me, when my parents ask me to choose what I want when they pay for it, I always pick the cheapest thing.

I feel we come from a lower middle class family and I hate to be a burden to my parents. Especially to my mum. She works hard and never complains. Okay maybe a few times on how we don't help out with the chores, but she's entitled to that.

So about the laptop, I picked a cheap one and she told me to get a better one as it would be good for the long run. I don't know but I just feel guilty about it. A part of me wanted to tell her that I don't need it if she needed to fork out the amount that was needed for the better model.

Since my early teenage life, I know my parents have it hard and I try to ease their burden by getting a part time job during my holidays to pay for my daily needs. I just hate the I idea that I have to be a burden to my parents. I feel bad, I feel guilty.

Yes there are times I have misunderstandings with them, especially my mum. All this while we'd get into a heated exchange of words. It's only recently I realised that how much she's done for the three of us.

My sister and her University fees, plane tickets, allowance and her usual needs. I feel she cant seem to understand the situation that she's putting mum and dad in.

My brother, the somewhat spoilt on in the family. He too does not realise the burden he's giving them.

My parents too play a part in this. I noticed, we would want something, if it's really not necessary they'd say no. But we'd somehow make them feel guilty about not getting it for us and they ending working hard just so we're happy.

Very self centred of us isn't it. I somehow hate myself for all the burdens I've given my parents... Especially you Amma

I'm Sorry & I Love You

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Frustration

2010-10-26T01:26:00.004+08:00

Really... What else is there?

It's like you just clear up the first mess and suddenly there is another and it's a hurtful one.

Work wise everything is good, I can say I'm enjoying other than the fact that I have one EVERY tough house keeping manager.

Miss, HR told me to ask you for leave of absence because my room was attacked by monkeys. They expect us to clean it

*gives a wtf look*

What you talking? Now you are on duty, please worry about your personal issues after your work... now go back to work!

Me, Her

Mind you someone forgot to close the window in our room which resulted in monkey mayhem. Shit, Food And Shit EVERYWHERE.

Freaking took me like 5 hours to clean up and wash ALL my clothes.

Am just frustrated with you. I don't know what you want. I adhered to all your rules for the room. I heard that you said that you have "problems" with your roommates. Please do enlighten me. Yes we have differences but running away to another room isn't gonna solve your fucking problems.

I'm not mad at you for changing room, I'm mad at you for not fucking telling me.

Thanks Remon

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Pangkor Laut Resort

2010-10-23T16:46:00.002+08:00

Yes, I've been really really late on the posting up on the post... hehe.

It's been close to two weeks and well so far, things have been good. Doing housekeeping first and at first I thought, "crap, I'm gonna hate it and stuff"

But apparently things have been good. No complaints on work really.

People have changed, some became arrogant, some have distant themselves and rest have remained being themselves, idiots.

So far enjoying it here.... that's all for now, will post up soon

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

What's Up With That?

2010-09-30T01:03:00.002+08:00

Been actually studying lately and mind you I've actually learned some things and find certain subjects easier.

I'm not talking about anyone in particular, it's just me thinking out, why are people sensitive? I've changed myself to adapt to sensitive people, not to get on their bad side. But in spite of that, there seems to be more nonsense popping up.

I somewhat feel upset about Remon's case. Not upset for him but at him. I think I've told you before, bro; just tell me.

But lately, you too have changed, reason why I don't ask you is because you shrug off my question and say you are okay. Mon, you are not a good liar.

I guess its the season where everyone is disappointing one another eh?

I know I'm disappointed with Aiman.

You are too thick headed, persistent and stupid. Missing practical classes? Really dude?

Honestly, I wont be surprised if I don't see you in class next term

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Soo Close Yet Soo Far

2010-09-20T01:09:00.002+08:00

I'm soo not in the mood for college later. I mean After going through the wonder called Pangkor Island Resort.

Went there for a day for my interview. Will blog more about it tomorrow as I can't seem to upload pictures into the blogger thingy.

So finally the holidays are coming to an end and I'm going back to college. Yay college =.=

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Opening Up

2010-09-12T01:13:00.003+08:00

This is gonna be an interesting post. I'm gonna talk bout me feelings.

Old ones to be exact.

So was talking to an old crush recently, after talking to her I went to sleep as it was late. As I laid on my pillow, I was thinking of that past. Thinking about her.

Since kindergarten, I had a crush on her, but frankly, I didn't know what was a crush and I was like "eww girls!"

I was WAY too shy to talk to her, that and all my friends would have teased me if I did so. I always saw her, I can't remember who she would hang out with. But I realized that every time I see her, I looked at her, she always had a smile on her face. She just had one of those cheerful faces. A face that could just light up your day.

It was like a secret crush. I never admitted it to anyone, a secret I kept till now I guess.

I remember when I was 10; it was the end of the year and I was going to my new class for next year. Looked at the name list like everyone else. Saw my name and started looking for my friends names and I stumbled upon her name. I think my heart skipped.

I was actually looking forward to talking to her. Actually saying something to her. Heck, I don't think she's ever said my name.

January 3rd 2002, I went to class. I picked my seat, sat beside another buddy. I waited for her, waited. But she never came. I didn't think much of it. I just thought she's still in a holiday mood or still in a holiday or worst, she's feeling under the weather.

One week passed and I couldn't wait. I and to one of her friends and asked. She had moved, migrated to a different country. My heart sank.

Back to the future

Here we are. I totally forgotten bout her till my friend showed me her Facebook profile. I hesitated to request a friend request thingy. Lot of things ran through my head;

Does she remember me?
Would she think I'm some stalker?
SHE HAS NEVER SPOKEN TO ME AND YOU WANT TO ADD HER AS A FRIEND? BRILLIANT!

I did, she accepted. We spoke, that's that.

If you know who she is, please do me a favor and keep it to yourself, please don't say who or point fingers at the chatbox. If you are really curious, MSN or Facebook or something

A Random Picture I Came Across While Googling Crush

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Still Wondering

2010-09-07T00:39:00.003+08:00

I don't know why, but I really wish I had some kind of disorder. I mean it would make my life soo much more interesting.

Came back from service. I puked out what I ate, brilliant. I had a feeling the chicken wasn't cooked properly. By puking it proved to be so.

I'm just looking forward to Pangkor, seriously I haven't even gone for the freaking interview and I'm planning everything already. Relatives said Pangkor Island Resort is quite dead and its just for relaxation. Heck after August all I want to do is relax.

Gimme a guitar, bottle of scotch, a futsal ball, my sketch pad and my MP3 player. I will be soo dayum happy.

I have no idea why I'm blogging. I'm bored

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Got You A Brand New Heaven

2010-09-06T18:34:00.002+08:00

Two hours to burn till dinner service. I'm Mani's guest. Bored so what do I do? Go to the library and sit infront of the computer.

I'm just soo bloody hooked on to Jack Johnson's Symbols In My Driveway. It's like the BEST song to listen to when you need to chill. Seriously I mean its the best song!

So went to youtube to try and learn the song and failed miserablely.... I can't find a single version that makes it easy to see what they are playing. But found how to play Gone and Flake... Come on holidays! Waiting for you. I know what I'm gonna be doing then

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

I Hate Jams, But Peanut Butter & Jam Is Okay

2010-09-05T02:21:00.002+08:00

I 've leaving college early, I love avoiding the Taylors jam, the jam we have within the college itself...

But after that, on the Federal highway, you just get sucked in to this sea of cars. And you are only gonna get out of it two hours later.

Yesterday that's exactly what happened. I usually turn out at PJ and avoid the whole jam at Federal highway but on this Friday, the jam was seriously bad. I turn into PJ to be stuck at another jam. Took a turn into the industrial area. Got stuck there in another jam.

I said to myself

screw it. I can't avoid it

I parked the car at the side of the road, I put down the windows abit and turned of the engine. Moved to the passenger's seat and took at nap. Put my alarm for 8pm when the roads will be clear due to everyone breaking fast. Worked like a charm. Next time, I'm just gonna stay in college till 8pm.

Something is missing, I dont know what, but it just is

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Mediocre Bad Guys

2010-09-02T00:44:00.002+08:00

I love sports. Why the major affection towards sports? As you all know with all the crap happening to me and stress build up only three things calm me down.

1. Guitar (till a certain point I get sick of it because I'm not improving)
2. "Calm Me Down" Playlist (nothing but Jack Johnson's Best)
3. Sports

In the noon I was really stressed, breathing heavily (abit I realised when I'm stressed) and cursing to kingdom come. But from 7.30pm till 10.30pm everything disappeared. I felt soo relaxed. I didnt feel an ounce of stress and I wasn't thinking about any worries in the world.

Sports

Futsal and basketball, you can never get me to stop. It's my weed.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Black Swan

2010-09-01T01:50:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure how I put up with all of this. If I was put in this situation say 3 or 4 years back, I'd just shoot myself. I'm still wondering, what is keeping me going?

August has just gone and it's been 2 hours and 50 minutes into September. I'm really looking forward to industrial training right about now. I really want to go to Pangkor and be lost in my thoughts.

I've given up on France. I feel like it was a cruel joke the college played on us. Just fucking tell us earlier that it's only for F&B and Kitchen instead of us finding out much later. Lecturer says there is still a possibility for me to go. *sigh* With all the great luck I have right now, I really doubt that is even possible.

I guess these two words are keeping me going everday as I wake up;

Hope & Believe

Yea, interesting words for a guy who gave up hope and believe on almost everything and everyone.

Still waiting for the Sun to rise

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Times Like These

2010-08-31T01:35:00.002+08:00

With the way how things are going, I just want to hide away. There is way too much shit on my plate.

The usual amount of bad luck I get in one year has been crammed and blown straight to my face in the likes of August. I feel really tired. Sleeping never helps, I'm in trouble in one way or another.

I need a hand. I need help. I need someone, anyone.

I'm way over my head. First thing to do is to take care of this little problem. If what he says is correct and she made it formal, I am fucked. Can you blame me? I didn't sleep for 2 days because of that damn assignment and at the brink of tears because I felt soo useless, I just couldn't figure out how to get rid of the bugs in the video.

Arika and Mani helped but I was really upset. Tears were there, I tried hard to hide them. You give me this choice, fail one or fail 5. I was mad, all I asked for was 2 minutes. Go up, pass the files and come back down. You didn't give.

Somehow I'm the bad guy in all this huh?

Got A Light Bulb Full Of Anger
And I Can Switch It On And Off
Situations It Can Be So Bright, I Can't Believe
How Pathetic I Can Be

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Symbol In My Driveway

2010-08-29T01:17:00.001+08:00

I've been meaning to update, I really have been but I haven't had the time to do so. I'm just making a quick blog to prove this blog aint dead. Will blog in a few hours time. I need to mend my ankles

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Black 13

2010-08-11T10:49:00.005+08:00

So for Malaysian Studies I did some last minute work for our assignment, May 13th 1969. Yes, not many know of this day. Not many were old enough to remember or elders just dont tell us as they are scared we're repeat our mistakes. But isn't history full of mistakes? We read about these mistakes so we dont repeat these mistakes. Anyhu... Here are some personal points of view during May 13th.

I was deeply touched by all of them. Believe it or not, I was in tears just by reading them.

I was then a nine-year-old son of an FRU policeman. We lived at the Police Depot at Jalan Gurney, Kuala Lumpur.
Even at my age then, it was clear to me that larger forces were at work in this terrible incident.

From our house in the Depot, we saw fires burning on the first two nights in the Batu Road (Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman) area – proof for me that the Chinese were attacked first. It was only on the third night when the fires appeared in a different part of the sky – over the Datuk Keramat and Kampung Baru areas.

Anyway, as we grew up, this subject came up many times and it was always clear to most people I met that the Chinese were attacked first.

I was also witness to another phenomenon that backs up an observation in the documents.

Around May 13, the older sons of many of my Malay neighbours were not be seen and they only returned days later. It was all hush-hush but their younger brothers told me that they were asked to assemble at residence of Harun Idris. From the way they behaved when they returned, I was led to believe that they had participated in the riots.

My father spoke harshly of the soldiers too. When the FRU men were sent out, many of the areas they went to had earlier been visited by the soldiers and the residents (or what were left of them) tearfully told stories of how the soldiers joined the Malays in attacking them.

Friends I met years later in Malacca also told me that soldiers had fired into shophouses in Jalan Bunga Raya for no reason. I have heard lots of other anecdotes too. Many Malaysians would have been personally affected by this tragedy. Maybe this would a good time for them to come forward and share their recollections.

The publication of these truths is long overdue. I hope it will lead to the different races of this country becoming more aware of how they are being manipulated to keep a select group of people in power.

So many innocent people died during those tragic days just so that power remained in the hands of the perpetrators. Datuk Harun (and I always believed this was due to divine retribution) never led a happy life after that incident. That fact is well-documented. I’m sure God would have punished the others too, whoever they are.

Another One

I was in class ( Form Six ) at a school in PJ, BBBS in Section 14. Totally oblivious of what was happening. This was then called FEC or Further Education School. Not one of us knew what was just about happening.

After class, I walked with my sisters, as usual, to the bust depot, about a 10-minute walk. That was when things didn’t seem right. There were no buses there. But we, along with others, waited, not long though. Nightfall was approaching.

It was the weirdest feeling I had ever felt …. All very quiet. No buses, then I realized there were no cars on the roads too!

Then the first bus came …. And as far as I can remember, the only noise was the sound of the bus.

We saw the passengers in the bus …. All with blood, some on their faces. To this day I can still picture a Chinese woman, in her 40s I believe, in the bus, holding some kind of a cloth on her face. Her face was covered with blood and all of them were rushing out of the bus.

We still did not know what the heck was happening. Then the passengers told us … still not knowing it was a racial clash between the Malays and the Chinese.

All innocent people in vehicles coming from Bangsar to PJ ….. no chance for them …. As they were stopped by the Kampung Kerenchi mob. Some who knew just zoomed past. Others were all slaughtered. One pregnant woman was massacred. No one was spared by these angry mob.

Kampung Kerenchi was like 10 minutes away from the bus depot. I don’t know how that bus went past but windows were smashed and people in it were hurt . I guess the driver rammed through the mob, only way to get past.

You could not escape going through the Federal Highway without passing and facing the wrath of the inhabitants of Kampung Kerenchi.

It took us all quite a while to realize what exactly was happening. It was a horrible sight. My sisters were there and we had no transport …. The mob may arrive …. All kinds of thoughts raced across my mind. I told my sisters to wait in a hidden place while I ran …. non-stop ( about 4-5 miles ) back home to tell and ask my father to pick them up.

I will never forget that run. As I ran, I started looking everywhere, behind, sideways, in front, to see if there was a mob of any kind.

We didn’t have the luxury of owning a cell phone then.

I managed to reach home and my father drove immediately to the place with me, to pick up my sisters. I thank God all of us were safe.

I think it was a couple of days later when a Curfew was imposed. Shops closed. Then after a few days, the curfew was lifted for an hour for all to get provisions.

I was living in Jalan Gasing at that time. Imagine, curfew and some of us got together and sneaked to another friend’s place, across the road …. Just to play gin rummy! We went there commando style. Heard and saw an army truck ( with orders to shoot to kill ), ducked amongst the lalang and crept to the house and we did the same thing returning home!

What I wrote is a summary. What is more important is, I too, as everyone else do not know who started it all.

Some would say, the idiots in politics.

Lastly

I was teaching in the Klang valley at the time, and was returning home after a badminton game when I saw the Tunku wept on TV. My heart went out to him. I noticed the tearful eyes of my roommate, a teacher from Kedah.

Some local gangsters came to our house to advise us to be ready with any weapon we could find, such as iron pipes. We were to signal any attack by beating pots and pans. That night I heard the security forces shouting at someone at the end of our block, asking him to "keluar."

The next day I heard gunshots somewhere near a theater: someone with a gun was holed up in his room. He later shot himself, I think.

The Malays were also frightened: parents arrived at the urban school wanting to take their children back because of a rumor that the Chinese were going to attack their children. The HM was absent and I refused their request. So did my Chinese and Indian colleagues until the lessons were over and then, as promised, we escorted the children passed the mainly Chinese shops to the city bus station. For the first time I was scared my own people would do something stupid.

A few days later a Chinese bus driver was stabbed to death somewhere near Shah Alam. Some houses near Meru, some miles from Klang, were burned and looted.

Later, I heard my elder brother was in the KL theater that was sprayed by the army's machine guns. I heard about a New Zealand nurse raped by some kampung hot heads - wondered if they were Harun's people. Things quietened down when the troops were replaced by the Sarawak Rangers.

In the aftermath I told my largely kampung students that while the communities were attacking one another, their leaders were having durian parties. But stupid people, especially the town Chinese, were talking about boycotting the Malay durian sellers. I told the few Chinese students to realize that this was a struggle between politicians and they should not be used as pawns.

My heart went to to each and everyone of them. The suffering they went through. Now you know why I say, race & religion are unnescessary borders... They cause nothing but pain and anguish.

Palms leaves, like blades (May 13, 1969)
Curfew: from the walnut cabinet
the test pattern’s squealing note.
Tuning the wireless past that
wailing from another planet.
Sirens whooping –
polis or ambulance? –
screaming … then silence [ ]
.
Banana palms clatter, like blades.
Blades falling – a bad dreaming,
a scene from nowhere, everywhere.
Clouds, like smoke.
Monkeys, like sirens.
Palms, like blades
chopping through the air.

It's a regrettable incident... have a prayer for those who were innocent. Don't forget May 13th 1969

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

It's So Fucking Unfair

2010-08-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

Seriously... Not even a fucking week. FUCK!! SERIOUSLY!! FUCK!! AGAIN!! I JUST FUCKING GOT IT!! IT'S ONLY FUCKING WEEK!!

Fuck Fuckedy Fuck Fuck Fuck

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

HOLY SHIT GUESS WHAT!!

2010-08-09T00:19:00.003+08:00

HOLY SHIT FCUK!! GUESS WHAT?!

It's a Monday, college, life, boring *sigh*

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

A Conversation With Remon

2010-08-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Who What Where, Pikachu

2010-08-04T08:30:00.003+08:00

I was meaning to update yesterday but I kindda ran out of time. It was getting late and I had to wake up early. I actually had something to blog about yesterday.

Today it's so my blog doesn't look dead as half the blogs on my links (no offense to you guys)

Age is catching up with me, I feel the burn from playing too much basketball. After yet another Tuesday basketball session, I felt my thigh strained, the same toe which I almost broke from the last week of basketball go stiff and painful and aches and pains at general places. Maybe it aint age but more on time to warm up before a game. Now I'm thinking whether I should tourture my body some more by playing futal later today.

It's ridiculously fast don't you agree? It's already term 4 and we're already on our 3rd week. Another 6 more weeks of college to go. Then training.

Speaking of which, for the second industrial training I've been meaning to go to a resort. So after talking to Remon, I've decided to goto Pangkor Laut Resort as my first choice, Pelangi Spa & Resort as my second choice and Thanjung Rhu Resort as my third choice. 3 months of working in paradise but there are setbacks. I won't be down for my birthday and I wont be down for Deepavali. Two of the biggest holidays I look forward to.

Yes My Birthday Is A Public Holiday, Just The MAN Feels That I'm Too Cool For Everyone To Celebrate My Birthday So We Keep It Under Wraps

Besides think of the danger to my life by parading around the streets, last thing we need is another JFK incident.

I have lots to say about everything, how I feel, what I think of some people but it's not worth it, no matter what, nobody changes. They NEVER change, there is no point on continuously trying got get that in their thick skull. They won't help.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Write The Future (DH vs DC Edition)

2010-07-29T08:14:00.002+08:00

Wayne Remon has the ball, can't be holding it too long to ponder on his next move, quick pass to Esteban Manikandan (Canavaro), he takes the ball side steps the striker avoids the tackle from the midfielder and leaves the defender on the ground as he dribbles past him too. 1 vs 1 situation with the keeper, the keeper dives in and gets the ball.

Seriously I was stunned but Canavaro's superb skill to dribble past the whole team. The game felt like some World Cup final match, the atmosphere that it was giving, just everything about it. You'd just want to give your A game in this.

Futsal at college, indoor court, hard court. My favourite. Play conditions? Night, weather; beautiful.

World Cup feeling but Champion's League play, home and away game. Lost our home game but won our away game.

We had the likes of Iker Cassilas (I can't remember the lecturer's name), Esteban Canavaro (Mani), Vidic Teoh (Adrian), Mr. Gopi Puyol (Just without the Sunsilk hair), Wayne Remon (but played midfield), Moxx Ballack (Rainer), Derek Messi and Navin van Persie.

Black Friday vs DC United
Home game we were leading from what appeared to be a keeper error after van Persie headed the ball into the box and the keeper was dumbfounded by the pass and it somehow went it. DH United somehow let the goal get ahead of them and were lazy on the defense against the counter attack. Which let to Black Friday conceding to late goals.

On the second leg, we conceded an early goal. Early in the game there were many chances, such as Esteban Manikandan's sublime dribbling skills against the whole DC United team. Just after Black Friday conceded van Persie took a shot that curled for the top corner but was just centimetres too high. A quick counter attack engineered by Wayne Remon who ended up having a great finish for the attack. The final attack and time running out, Cassilas throws the ball far and wide just slightly above DC United's defender to van Persie who was waiting for it. He' chests it down and with his back towards goal be blasts it to kingdom come and there we have it the winning goal.

For the love of the game, it was most amount of fun Black Friday had in a long time. And we are really looking forward to the next game, next week.

Unfortunately for now, we're just worried on the aches and pains. I can't walk fast. I have to walk slowly because my calfs, hamstrings, knees and groin muscles are worked to the bone. When I walk, it feels like jelly.

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Fluck Fluckedy Fluck

2010-07-26T23:38:00.001+08:00

It Speaks For Itself, Go Headbutt A Bullet

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Langga Freaking Wheee Day 2

2010-07-25T22:16:00.008+08:00

Yes the much awaited part two of our 3 part Langkawi vacation.

So after a good drinking session, we went for a walk at 3am in the morning.. Mani, Frans, Remon and myself. So we're standing at the beach and Mani walks up to the water for some reason. We stand behind him... It's dark but the moon gives out enough light to see the beach clear, I see something running towards us, running along the beach line... it runs past Mani and we could make out a figure of a dog, a black dog.

We were like "WHAT THE FUCK?!!" It was pretty weird coz the dog didnt stop running and from what I know usually when a dog encounters a human it actually like stops or "layans" the human but in this case this "dog" was determined and continued to run.

What's even more creepy? My uncle says there ain't no dogs in Langkawi. Freaky much?

So after some much needed sleep we all headed to this malay stall for some good nasi lemak. It was literally a walk down the road from the hotel but it was like a 15 minutes walk... longest 15 minutes la, was seriously damn hungry. Remon proud with his orange converse

So unfortunately when we get there, there were no more nasi lemaks. I ended up having some really oily and not appetizing koay tiow, I ended up not finishing it.

So the girls went shopping and the guys did what we do best when the girls go shopping... CC!! Yes we went CC at Langkawi. Quite pathetic but we had a REALLY good time

So we were back before the girls and we did what we did best, rape each other.

So after the beaches and banana we went to a beach side place for some tom yam. Then this chap comes along and plays some tunes... And HE'S GOOD!!

So after another CC session we take Frans to the beach for a late birthday present... getting buried in the sand.

Now THIS is where the fun starts

Day 3 should be up by end of this week or earlier... hopefully earlier... I malas wanna write about this already

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

It Came From Langkawi Part 1

2010-07-14T21:48:00.011+08:00

First up I'd like to congratulate myself for this is my 200th post for Thoughts Of The Illogic. Where did the time and posts go?

Anywhoots, It's finally here, part one of a four part (I think)

This post is JUST for the first day...
A little note, 90% of this pictures are candid and not posed. Dunno why I felt like saying that. Don't like it? TOO BAD LA! YOU GO LANGKAWI THEN TAKE PICTURES YOU WANT!! Pfftt... people these days....

Remon And That "I Want A Blow Job" Face

Took This Pic Of Frans, Seriously Like Some Album Of A K-Pop Album
FYI, he wasn't posing. Heck he didn't even know the picture was taken till later that day

I was full of excitement, this is gonna sound so gay, but I was excited because this was gonna be my first time on a plane. My first time flying. Arika said I looked like some Backstreet Boy, or was that me who said it.... should have updated earlier

Don't think I'd forget this plane, as this plane was the first plane which I've flown in. The feeling when we took off. I was like a little girl... literally. Airbus A320

Alien Fingers

TERRORIST!!

So after the 45 minute flight from the LCCT to Langkawi airport, we took at cab to our motel.

Proud to be "Budget" Dutch

Most of us felt abit tired and the rest such as Remon and myself wanted to show our colors and a fine job we did, summore 2 for 30 bucks... I call it a bargain!

So as usual, the guys are done changing and what not and standing outside for a good 20 minutes while the girls powder their noses. We were wondering whether we should go for the Sunset cruise, because it had just rained, it wouldnt have been safe

But lucky us the skies cleared up and off we headed for the Sunset Cruise. Imagine, RM50 got us buffet style food, free flow alcohol and treatment rightful for a king. I kept telling myself it saying this trip was a day trip and Sunset Cruise was the only thing we were doing, it would be soo damn worth it.

The yacht was really chilling and the music too. The highlight of this picture? Remon's face. He seemed to have that face everytime he had a glass with him

This would have been the highlights of the cruise. Shark feeding as the crew member called it. They layout this net behind the boat and cruise at a low speed and we get on the nets and hang on. Seriously the feeling was awesome, and to top it off

Sir Can I Get You A Beer To Drink?

Never did beer taste soo good. It was the beer of relaxation, everything tasted better.

By the looks of our faces you can see how much we enjoyed the damn cruise. Mani and Frans tak boleh belah, acting poyo looking here and there.

Mani just didn't like this picture. To me it was like some body sculpting ad, from left, before, in thee middle, during and on the right, after.

Mani says give him 6 months and he'll have packs too... I plan to make mine more obvious by then.

This has to be one of the most awesome-est pictures of the trip. He has this model/porn star look

All you can eat buffet and the food was *MOUTH WATERING!!*

It can't be called a Sunset Cruise with out a sunset right? Well on that day there wasn't much of a sunset either but the lighting and the scenery was to die for. Thank dog for my awesome photography skill that kills and makes you spill near the window sill that I just drilled... lame I know

THAT PRETTY MUCH CONCLUDES PART 1 OF LANGGA FREAKING WHEEE
But For Part 1 These Are The Pictures Of The Day

Seriously, what would we do without Frans, I sure as hell know I miss him now

ON ANOTHER NOTE
Conversation With Derek

| Steve | says:
i love you
[i]J w e n .[/i] [c=4]BLEH.[/c] says:
same
| Steve | says:
awww
lets hav a baby
[i]J w e n .[/i] [c=4]BLEH.[/c] says:
let's have ten!
| Steve | says:
OOO
boy girl boy girl boy girl boy girl boy girl
in tht order
[i]J w e n .[/i] [c=4]BLEH.[/c] says:
no we should have girl boy boy girl boy then girl girl then boy girl boy
| Steve | says:
okay
that works too

Me, Derek

If you've seen these pictures somewhere
else rather than my or Remon's Facebook account
please do inform us, as you know copying pictures without ones notification is no nice,
stealing is not nice

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

He's Gone

2010-07-10T01:12:00.004+08:00

There He Goes,
They Had An Outing
That I Wasn't Invited For
The Typical Thing To Do
He's My Friend Too
My First Ever Friend
We Were First
Best Friends
Then
Friends
Then
Acquaintances
Finally
I
Was Punchline
For Their Jokes

Where Was I?
Why Wasn't I Called?
This Really Hurts
Not Too Sure
When I'd Be Seeing Him Again
Beginning To Hate Them More
I've Been Erased
I'm Nothing But Dust

Don't bother trying to figure out....
Fuck them

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Paula The Octopussy

2010-07-10T00:45:00.004+08:00

Seriously This octopussy is getting on my nerves.

If you people believe soo much about it predicting games, might as well not have the finals right? Might as well just GIVE the damn cup to Spain now huh?

That's what you Spain supporters would want huh?

Honestly speaking, don't let an octopussy decide the game, let the game decide itself. It's all mind games. By doing so you are just getting into the heads of your opponents. So much for fair play huh?

Nah, I'm not gonna write how I want to eat deep fried octopussy or anything. But what I've realised from 3 videos; Holland vs Spain, Uruguay vs Germany and Germany vs Spain

That damn octopussy keeps going to the right. Could there be match fixing involved somehow? I sure as hell hope not.

HUP HOLLAND!

I feel really tired. I just want to sleep for like the whole day if possible, work and going out it's just torture. Can't wait for college to start. I want college drama back in my life.

Current songs that are stuck in my head... its soo nice it's annoying

Three Effin Years... That Long, I Need To Open My Eyes

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OMG THIS BLOG ISN'T DEAD!!

2010-07-08T00:16:00.004+08:00

Yes I haven't updated in like a million years. I realised. And I'm sorry, Bubu, I truly am.

With industrial training over and done with I've been "busy" (playing Heatseeker, futsal etc).

Anyhu what has happened over these few weeks? The MonkeyGirl a.k.a. the sister is back. Thats the bad news.

Good? I've got the keys of the Monster a.k.a. Volvo 740 GLT (Grand Luxury TURBO) and trust me I'm in love.

Went to Langkawi and well.... I really need to blog about that... maybe one or three posts JUST on that. Anywhoots, will upload them pics tomorrow promise!

Here's a sneek peek on whats to come

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Kill Me

2010-07-07T01:06:00.001+08:00

Will Be Updating As Soon As I Can

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Lazy, Bored

2010-06-24T12:51:00.002+08:00

I have to admit, I'm just way to lazy to update these past few days.

So far, Industrial Training is over, Langkawi is drawing closer, my sister is coming back soon, I've made a new comic, my mp3 player died and as soon as my sister comes back, I'll be driving the Volvo.

So on my last day of work. I was literally counting the hours down and waiting till the moment and days where I don't have to wake up and straight looking at my watch to see if I overslept.

My friends in the kitchen were counting down too. They were waiting for 10pm so I finish my shift and be free to be showered. The video is on facebook.

So I did get showered and that too with eggs, flour, spices and what not. The kitchen's secret recipe.

I was pretty upset with it being my last day there and all but then again will be seeing the monkeys again when I do part time. Yes, I plan to work on weekends to generate some extra income so I don't always have to rely on my parents.

So on the same day as my last day my MP3 player, yes, the detonator looking one, died. Pretty darn pissed off as it was my baby. ERGH!! 4 bloody years with it and it finally dies. That too before Langkawi. Looks like it's not meant to go to Langkawi again.

I'm just ridiculously bored. I have absolutely nothing to do.

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The Cup That Brings Us Together

2010-06-17T08:16:00.002+08:00

People always say that sports brings everyone closer. I didn't believe that till recently, when The World Cup started. I'm routing for ORANJE this year and seriously I think they have what it takes for The World Cup.

So like I was saying, it was a Monday, if I'm not mistaken and it's Hollands opening match with Denmark.

Two teams with good stats,

Holland Denmark
Have Been On A Winning Haven't Lost Their
Streak Opening Match Since
1938

Denmark scored a goal, but just not for them. The first EVER own goal in the history of the tournament if I'm not mistaken.

We ended up winning the game 2-0

Next is time to kick some Blue Samurai Butt

Here I was working during the game but the excitement and anxiousness during the game was really intense. I seriously think everyone working or dining at Chilli's was somehow routing for Holland. When the attack which led up to the second goal hit the bar everyone was screaming like they lost something precious, when Dirk Kuyt put it in, the place went wild. Customers & Servers were one.

It's not that I didn't want to update, it's just when I'm about to update I have absolutely nothing to write about. Sad huh?

Training is about to come to an end and Langkawi is 9 days away. It's now single digits baby!!

Who Are You Routing For?

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Dangling Hope?

2010-06-10T02:20:00.001+08:00

Like I said, there is always that tad bit of hope dangling over my head. And the question is, should I take it?

I wish I could talk to someone bout it. Preferably a girl who can give some good advice. Yes... I'm still not over her =.=

On another note, Prince Of Persia was good... will update more tomorrow

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Old Friend

2010-06-07T10:48:00.002+08:00

Two days ago I had a rather peculiar dream. And lately my dreams are getting very peculiar. Anyhu,

I dreamt that my National Service friend, Dzar, came to Bangsar. It was an odd dream and very random especially since I haven't seen or spoken to him since National Service. God knows how I lost contact with that one.

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The Mysterious OI GiLLIAN!

2010-06-05T12:31:00.000+08:00

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Love Will Come Your Way One Of These Days

2010-06-05T11:42:00.002+08:00

Estimate Another 16 or 15 days to go. Why? Coz we're given 2 days annual leave and 3 replacement public holidays that makes a total of 5 days and add a day off a week makes it 6.

So we're actually supposed to finish on the 26th but if the leave application goes my way then I finish on the 20th of June. Giving me a whole one week before Langkawi and a chance to salvage my social life.

I've already planned on doing part time after Langkawi. Means of extra pocket money. That way I dont need to bug my parents to stuff that I want.

Last week I've bought a pair of Sonic Gear headphones for RM65 and DAMN! If I can't get those Limited Edition Skullcandy Snoop Dogg Headphones then this will just have to do. Next target is that headphones. Freaking RM300 bucks. I've tried Skullcandy before and the quality is out of the world. And the designs is freaking trippy.

Anyways was bored just now and was just profile hopping on Facebook and came up with the conclusion that it's ALWAYS the Idiots With The Girls what's wrong with girls these days?

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Happy Birthday Daddy

2010-06-05T11:30:00.004+08:00

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Can You Feel A Little Love Tonight?

2010-05-31T01:26:00.001+08:00

This Song Brings Back Alot Of Memories

And There Is This

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...

2010-05-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

Is It Ever Gonna Be Enough?

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IRON FREAKING BABY

2010-05-29T01:30:00.000+08:00

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WHAT THE FLOWER!!

2010-05-29T01:06:00.002+08:00

By far the most commonly used word in the kitchen. I was put in kitchen for 3 days this week. First day doing Salads and Nachos and the next two days doing Flatop. In English means doing burgers.

The experience in the kitchen is beyond explanation, the kitchen staff at night is all guys because Chilli's dont allow girls to work after 10pm. So these guys all welcomed me like I've been working there.

First day in the kitchen I was quiet but after that, all hell broke loose.

Yesterday Amir, one of the 5 outlet's managers ajaked me to come lepak with them after work, which was 1am. I was like okay. Mamaked till about 4am and got home.

Amir told me that the Chilli's staff play futsal once in awhile and I've been invited for the next outing. YAY!

Gonna watch a movie with the colleagues tomorrow, PRINCE OF FLOWERING PERSIA!

Today was a really busy mainly because it was Wesak Day.

I was in Lounge and I had this one table. 3 girls. First thing one of them asked me when they sat down was

May I Please Have The Comment Card?

I explained that we dont do that anymore and use an online system. So while serving them I noticed one of them looking at me. If a customer looks at you, it usually means they want something so I went up and asked her if there was anything.

She politely said no and started to giggle. Some reason I felt like a mixture of an idiot and embarrassment.

Later one of them wanted to ask me a "personal" question, my age. I told her and she nodded.

So they paid and left. 20 minutes later Layla, one of the other managers, comes and tell me that those girls called up and complimented on my service and attentiveness. Layla was shocked and so was I.

Abit regretful I Feel... One of them was really cute, the one who asked my age.

ONLY AFTER THEY LEFT I THOUGHT OF A PICK UP LINE!! FML!!

The pick up line

Can I ask you a personal question?
Err... sure
How old are you?
19? Can I ask you a personal question?
I guess?
Can I have your phone number?

Her, Me

What the flower la

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Oldtimers & Quasadillas

2010-05-27T02:16:00.002+08:00

Can't update yet due to exhaustion... Working 5pm to 1am.

Just got home, will blog tomorrow or today or more specific, in about another 11 hours time.

Havent updated due to the modem going KABOOM

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Life Is Easier Said Than Done

2010-05-19T15:49:00.002+08:00

Lots of drama at work and I'm neutral in the main one. I feel both sides are at fault but who cares for my opinion.

Working in the F&B line made me appreciate waiters a whole lot more. They have one of the few jobs that requires alot of thick skin.

Here are a few examples.

Chilli's policy says that customers cant share a bottomless drink. It's one drink to one person. It even clearly stated at the beverages part of the menu. Yet, people still stubbornly share drinks.

I honestly hate dealing with teenagers, people my age and slightly older. Why? because they REALLY treat waiters like crap. Where else older customers and familial customers are 98% great people. People you can talk to and joke around.

What is the relevance of the both?

A few days ago I got a big pax table. Full of people around my age and lala. Yes, lala. Not to be racist or anything, I dont give double standard to ANYONE but lala teenagers are the ones I really don't like serving. They give the LEAST respect and so.

So they sit and they order. 7 pax, 7 separate meals but only 3 drinks. 3 milo's to be frank. If we suspect a customer is sharing drinks we inform the Floor Manager, on that day was Mr. Sharom, he told me to keep an eye out and if they still share inform him.

Sure enough they did and I informed Mr. Sharom.

He goes over and informs them, one of the guest gets pissed and stands up, I hear him saying

"It's Only Milo, What Is So Wrong About Sharing"

In spite of getting grilled by them, Mr. Sharom kept a cool head. He told them what needed to be told then he left. 5 minutes later they leave to.

I somehow felt guilty for putting Mr. Sharom in that position but there was something to be learned there for all hospitality students.

Stay Calm, Dont Raise Your Voice, Don't Seem Threatening

I can say I've learned quite abit from the managers. Mr. Amir is my favorite, serious as he maybe he know when it is time for jokes. On Saturday he passed me a plate of Buffalo Burger Bites during my break and told me to eat with Frans.

These words that he said to me just stayed on to me. Might not mean much to you guys but it meant quite a bit to me

Don't Matter About Race, Colour, Attitude And Whatever Else, Treat All Of Them Like Family, If Were Being An Asshole Before They'd Regret It Coz It Didn't Work On You

Hafeez also gave some words of wisdom. But I guess I've been following it for quite some time

Stand Out Make Em Notice

I wish I Had Friends LiKe Hafeez And Amir

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It Aint My Friend

2010-05-19T01:09:00.000+08:00

PINEAPPLE CURRY AIN'T MY FRIEND!

nuff said

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Change Of Heart?

2010-05-18T10:28:00.002+08:00

From what I can see everyone seems to be one way or another starting to enjoy their training. Reading Remon's blog after quite awhile, keep laughing at all the nonsense that goes around with him.

As for Chilli's?

Yesterday I was working inside and Frans was at the patio. Layla, one of the managers comes to me and says;

Eh, Frans looks like that superhero.... that Japanese one...
Ultraman?
YESSSS ULTRAMAN!!!!

Then she walked off, he looked at me and I did that ultraman pose. He replied with some indian dance and dancing around an imaginary tree.

Really enjoying work and seriously am planning to do part time after training to make some extra income

So we hav 3 birthday's to talk about today.

NUMBER 1

Mr. Hariish Vera aapan
Happy birthday bastard... it will be good to see your godforsaken ugly face later =D

NUMBER 2
Monkey Boy a.k.a. The Brother

LOOK AT MY FACE!!

NUMBER 3
Mr. Jack Johnson

Hey dude sorry i couldnt find a picture of both of us together. Haha have to hang out with you again and maybe make a new album huh?

Eleee.... like as if i know him only. I was lazy to get a picture of him

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LEGO WARS

2010-05-15T00:32:00.001+08:00

Damn Good Shit

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Feeling Good =D

2010-05-13T20:17:00.004+08:00

Medication Makes Me Feel Like This

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Wei You Ar!

2010-05-12T23:55:00.003+08:00

You are seriously pissing me off...

I cant breath, i can't smile, i can't think coz of you. You are nothing but a big pain.

Please just get lost. Go die and burn in hell PUHLEASE!!

About now you'd be asking "Who the fuck is he talking about?"

Well...

My Sinus Problem

That's how I feel right now

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Sick Bastard

2010-05-11T22:35:00.001+08:00

I Really Feel Like Crap

I am what I am in the back of beyond
The man with a fork in a world of soup
Baby all this time you played me for a fool
But now I know what I have to do

I'm gonna kick you out and let the sunshine in
Kick you out and let the sunshine in

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Phlegm

2010-05-11T20:46:00.002+08:00

I've been sick for the past few days and it's really killing me. First the sore throat, cough and phlegm. Then feeling really weak. Now just really bad sinus.

Someone once told me that we end up finding someone along the way. Someone to be with and to share your experiences. Frankly I can never see myself in that position. Who can actually put up with my antics.

Narcissist, Talkative and talk at the wrong times, Shoot first ask questions later, My needs first, etc.

Random Thought

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Women

2010-05-11T20:30:00.005+08:00

You're Happy
You're Sad
You're Angry
You Want To Talk
You Ignore Me
I'm Confused

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Let's Go Zero!

2010-05-10T23:41:00.001+08:00

48/47 Days To Go!!

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He Pays The Bills And Don't You Be No Fool

2010-05-09T14:17:00.000+08:00

Ahh Sweden, they've given us soo much and ask for soo little. Heck they were a neutral country for both world war one and world war two

They've given us...

The SAAB JAS GRIPEN* (*Griffin In Swedish)

Yes you read right.. SAAB, as in SAAB the car company. Multirole and one of the most maneuverable planes up there with the F/A-22 Raptor & Typhoon

VOLVO

Can you say "Safest Car In The World?" You gotta love them they are fast, safe and mean looking. Personal favourite is the 850 GLT

AND

The Caesar Palaces
Gotta Love Them Swedish

I've been listening to them since 2004 but only lately dug in deeper and looked for their other songs other than "Jerk It Out"

The all famous "Jerk It Out", how can we forget it? It was their most famous song and featured in FIFA 2004. Therefore every guy with a PC, PlayStation 2 and any other console that can support that game and loves football must have heard that song.

So after finding a few of their albums and listening to them, these are the best songs which I think they've come up with

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I'm Feeling Picture-ry

2010-05-09T12:02:00.006+08:00

CLICK TO ENLARGE

Thats A Guy By The Way... The First Highlighted One
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HAPPY MUMS DAY

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Current Racial Issue

2010-05-04T23:25:00.002+08:00

Basketball - Chinese
Football - Malay
Cricket - Indian

I'm actually really cool about racism in sports because it builds character but after today, it just really ticked me off.

Why is race such a big thing?
Why is it just because the guy in your team has a darker skin colour you cant pass to him?
Why must you speak a different language than that one person who doesn't understand it?
Why?

Okay we play racist basketball in the park but it's among friends and its like okay because we don't mean harm. We don't mean what we say and it aint harsh.

I got called today for Taylors basketball team selection. I was really excited, so much so that I ended up not eating lunch.

I went to the court and well this was the situation;

30 people
25 are chinese
4 are africans
1 is me

The coach felt ALL of us understood mandarin and spoke in mandarin the WHOLE time. Only when he wanted something done he'd talk to us in English. Don't we deserve to understand what you say too?

To me it gave the impression that he already made his pick for the team and it was all Chinese.

Later during game, the only time i touched the ball was on rebound, they felt I wasn't worth the pass even though I was wide open. I fought for the ball with what I thought was the opponent and found out my own teammate was trying to take it from me. That is ridiculous.

I mean if you really dont want me to play then just say so. Don't treat me like an animal.

I just feel the way I was treated was unfair, the african guys got the ball everytime they asked for it. My shouts went to deaf ears.

So much for playing for college huh?

If I offended anyone with this racial post I'm truly sorry but I'm pretty upset with what happened

Can I Get Some Mustard Please?!

2010-05-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

I burned my finger while serving a guest. I was serving the fajitas which comes in black frying pan with a wooden under liner. My pinky slipped or something and had to leave it there or I risk dropping the food.

It was burning like hell, a colleague, I cant remember her name told me to dip it in mustard. I thought I was deaf.

MUSTARD CAN EASE THE BURN PAIN!!!

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Grow Up

2010-05-03T00:07:00.002+08:00

Grow Up And Stop Being Such A Big Baby... World Doesn't Revolve Around You Asshole

That was dedicated to me by me

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Kafka Would Be Proud

2010-05-02T21:13:00.004+08:00

I'm seriously like counting everyday till training is over.

Not that training sucks or anything. I actually enjoy working at Chilli's. That's coz Frans is there. That and 5 other people from Taylor's. It's fun seriously, time flies; you go in at 9am and next thing you know its 2.30pm and time for break. After break chill out and its 5pm... GO HOME!!!

I was walking back to the car today and I decided to go through Gardens instead of around it as I thought it was faster. So as was about to go out of Gardens I see this little girl about 3 years old struggling to open the big door. I helped her open the door and she looked at me.

I thought she'd smile and run looking for her mum but instead she turns the other way away from the door and runs to her mum. I just couldn't help but laugh out loud. I looked like a lunatic. I don't look I AM!

I need to sayang my guitar more

54 Days To Heaven

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The Gamble

2010-04-26T03:03:00.003+08:00

Why do it?

Why are people stupid enough to take their own life to prove they love someone?

Why is it people are fucked up?

Why?

From what I can gather these people do it to prove a point, a point such as they love someone soo much that they are willing to give their life to be with that someone.

Hold on idiot, let's think about that first. What do you get out of killing yourself over some girl/guy?

What The Love Struck Fool Would Think
1. I'll make that person regret not loving me back
2. Make everyone feel sorry for me
3. Haunt her/him
4. By doing so people will remember you forever

You get the idea

What I Think
1. You're an idiot to kill yourself for someone who doesnt think you are good enough
2. You're an idiot for the pain and suffering you "happily" give you family and especially your parents
3. You're an idiot for thinking people will remember forever, a year or two and most people would have forgotten you
4. You're an idiot for trying to get sympathy
5. You're an idiot for thinking you can haunt someone

Come one get real, there is about 6 billion people in the world. Just because one girl doesn't like you doesn't mean it's the end of the world.

The worst thing you can do is after realizing that you and him/her aren't made to be you just stay at home and emo. Let it out, talk to friends you can trust you'll feel a whole lot better.

I had to learn that the hard way. My issue is always about trust and who I trust and shit like that. It's safe to say, I trust more people now days.

Please Think About Your Parents Before You Think About The Gamble, Don't Let Them Down, Don't Let Yourself Down

If anyone needs someone to talk to I'm just a phone call away

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It Has Happened Sigh

2010-04-24T00:32:00.002+08:00

It Has Really Happened..

| NK | says:
mcm mana?
dude
i love alexis too
but wht can we do?
Francis says:
I've decided
to quit
taylor's
and
quit diploma
i'm gonna stick to alexis
| NK | says:
wtf
dude
tell me ur joking
Francis says:
i love that place man
| NK | says:
DUDE
| NK | says:
you okay ar?
Francis says:
i dont know how to explain
but
yeah
i've decided to do it
| NK | says:
wait
lemme get this straight
ur quiiting college coz u love alexis
and plan to work there?
Francis says:
yeah
i've decided

Frans Fiscal Has Left Us...

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He Can Only Fool Himself For So Long

2010-04-23T11:15:00.002+08:00

Shit I need more sleep, my schedule is as follows since Monday;

10.00a.m. - Wake Up
12.15p.m. - Walk To Alexis
9.30p.m. - Shower & Computer
1.00a.m. - Sleep

This has been my cycle for awhile. Next week I'll be on the morning shift so I guess I need to sleep earlier. But the week after that I'll be on night shift which means closing up the restaurant at 1 or 2 a.m.

This week is considered over, another 4 more weeks at Alexis. I didn't mention, I'll be doing another 5 more weeks of training somewhere else because Alexis doesn't allow interns to do kitchen because they are afraid we'll "ruin" the food. Whatever.

So Frans and I will be doing the other 5 weeks of training somewhere else. I'm just looking forward to after training, the college gang plans to go to Langkawi. My second time in less than a year. I'm not complaining it would be just what we need. A paradise in more ways than one if you know what I mean

When it comes to how to live his life
He can't be told
Says he's got it all under control
Thinks he knows it's not a problem he's stuck with
But in reality, it'd be a problem to just quit
An addict and he can't hold the reigns
The pain is worse 'cause his friends have it the same
Tries to slow down the problem he's got
But can't get off the carousel
Until he makes it stop

He can only fool himself for so long

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Black Plastic

2010-04-21T00:26:00.003+08:00

If you ever wondered what my titles mean, its usually random words I hear in lyrics as I'm blogging, music goes well with blogging. Heck music goes well with everything.

Second day of work and I've met my manager, Jaz. Average height, well built man and somehow looks scary. But then again, somehow he reminds me of well... me.

Don't ask me how but he just does. I think I got the hang of things there and I don't feel as tired as I did on the first day.

This is a short one =) I'm starting to enjoy work

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Mr. Mayukh

2010-04-20T01:31:00.004+08:00

Random Notes I Forgot To Write About:

1. I gave Mr. Mayukh a ride to college
2. I served a guy that looks like an older version of Kennedy
3. I counted a total of 7 chicks in Alexis... All without male companions
4. It was sweet of Sook & Filza to say hello to me at work
5. I don't think I can do this for 3 months
6. 50% stopped thinking bout her, the other 50% keeps asking me why

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

What Usually Hurts Is Good For You

2010-04-20T01:18:00.002+08:00

I started training today like everyone else. Alexis Bangsar is the place.

First day nothing much, quite boring because I haven't got my own ID for the POS (or whatever you call it) so I have to "observe" everyone else.

The people? There's Kabir the bartender, he may look like in his late twenties but acts childish, he keeps me entertained during the boring periods.

Eliz, the supervisor, she's cool, she showed me around and told me what to do and how to do it.

Lin, she's got to be about around my age I guess, she helped me out when Eliz wasnt around.

AJ, he's somewhat moody and I keep my distance.

Yusuf, he's cool someone you'd talk to once in awhile I guess, I have no common interest with him so its hard to talk.

I was told that I was only going to be doing F&B and not kitchen. So there could be a possibility of a transfer to somewhere else I guess. In other words I wont be making RM1500 in total.

It was just my first day and I'm been having this quite bad back pain. I think it's because of the shoes I'm wearing? That's what my mum says.

Repair Those Burnt Bridges

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

When I Get Out Of Bed

2010-04-16T01:33:00.001+08:00

This is going to be a long post. Bear with it.

Yes with exam over and all we wanted to party and we wanted to party HARD! Yes, yes we did but at the end of the night it was abit of a downer... sitting down at the balcony in awkward silence with Remon.

I enjoy a little group therapy session I had on that day. Not just with those two but with another person earlier that day. I realized that person is nice to talk to, when he's alone that is. He's somehow the quiet and reserved type.

Shisha with Mark, Vanessa, Faz and Ashley. Okay, I didnt want my Bangsar friends to meet my college friends after one such incident but I trust Mark not to do anything stupid. He and I have almost the same principles.

It was fun just chilling, talking and shishaing.

I cant put pictures up for some reason. Internet is being a bitch.

When to Ampang yesterday with Remon, Aiman, Mani, Anna, Hans, Gillian, Arika and Jasmine. It was really fun and I bloody saw a FREAKING MUSTANG!!! OH SHIT WEI! I took some pictures of it and will upload all the pictures, all 250++ pictures of that day.

Back Seat Ppl : eh they said turn left.
Mani : *honk honk
Navin : *pointing left left left left... See more
Back Seat Ppl : haa? turn left somemore? wait, is there anything on the left side of this car? Arika, check yr door.
Navin & Mani : *pointing left left LEFT LEFT LEFT
Back Seat Ppl : eh Remon wait! slow down first. ey ey wait, ey stop the car! they're trying to say something!
Remon : what??? *run out of the car
Navin & Mani : DID YOU SEE THAT MUSTANG?!
Back Seat Ppl : -______________________________-

Bowling then to the Petronas Twin Towers Sky Bridge then Petrosains and acted immature with the rest, Burger King, Look Out Point.

Best part of the day? Mani forgot where he parked the car in KLCC. spent about half an hour looking for the car.

I talked about it to some people and I felt better but somehow had a weird feeling in my stomach, didn't know getting over someone is quite this hard.

One thing for sure, the Ceaser's Jerk It Out somehow made me feel better. It just does. That and Rob Thomas' Little Wonders. Wonders of music yet again to the rescue.

Currently in love with these songs

I hope not to weaken up to someone for a long time, you are the last... for now

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

She...

2010-04-11T01:45:00.004+08:00

I think I've made up my mind. There is nothing I can do about it. We're from two totally different worlds.

I'm Screwed Up

She's Perfect

I don't know if it was one sided or maybe she felt the same way. I could never tell, I can never interpret girls. But one thing is for sure, I'm way too afraid to do anything about it.

I remember the first time I saw her, it was like a "love at first sight thing" but more like she was different, she stood out even though she was somewhat shy and quiet. There was just something about her. She stole my heart.

She stole it and never gave it back, pretending like she never even took it. I think I made it obvious and she was most probably continued replying my messages out of common courtesy.

Soo many times, I would be having an argument in my head about what she thinks of me and whether I should move on that maybe she isn't the one. I've been fickle minded about this.

Mainly because she would dangle just that little bit of hope that maybe she feels the same way I do and then she just snatches it away. So many times, but I've been angry at her for doing so. I can't and don't think I could ever be mad at her.

I'm moving on, as painful as it is going to be I'm moving on.

Relationship is full of shit when it comes to me, it's ALWAYS one sided and I'm at the losing end.

Yes, I started to think again...

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Cunted Week.... Err, I Mean Chun-ted

2010-04-05T00:33:00.005+08:00

Okay I have to say, it's been a good week for me. Things are great, assessments were do-able and people have been kind. And I've managed to get some swimming here and there.

WARNING! THERE ARE QUITE A NUMBER OF PICTURES, RANDOM AND SOME MAYBE DEEMED ILLEGAL IN CERTAIN PARTS OF THE WORLD!

VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED!

Might be too dark but I just love this picture, yes, night swimming.

La Familia Of College

Mani, Remon, Navin

Our special ingredient for the chocolate mousse is... BOOGERS AND SNOT!

Navin On The Look Out For Cleavage

BUDAK INDIA!!!!

This bloody Fiat 600 didn't want to give way, therefore I was going 40km on the right lane.

April Fool's Day, Arika, Jasmine, Gillian And Anna kena sooo much spamming that this crap came out on my screen... Didn't even know this shit can happen

Nuff Said

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Excuse Me Goes A Long Way

2010-04-01T01:41:00.004+08:00

These are the little things that most and when I say most I mean 70% or more of Malaysians rather not say;

Please
Thank You
Excuse Me

Ever realised?

In the kitchen I become someone else. I want to get work done and I want it done fast. I like to take charge of everything there and order people and assign them to specific jobs so we can finish faster.

Narcissistic moment....

Someone compared me to Gordon Ramsey, but I haven't gone to his level yet.

In the kitchen I expect proper grooming, if you have long hair, I'd rather you make sure all your hair is in your chef hat or you dont handle food at all.

Those 3 words on top can go a long way, be generous with those words.

Will load up pictures of class soon.

Rainbow pissed me off for 2 days straight. She likes to brush people aside instead of saying something like

EXCUSE ME

The first 3 times she did that I was still calm but the fourth time when she wanted to open the chiller and she just puts her hand on my right knee and brushes me aside I really got pissed off.

I was in pain and on the knees it's double the pain. See, I have a gash on that knee and it's been hurting like a bitch. Imagine the pain when she just did that. Thanks, It's Just What I Needed.

I went for night swimming yesterday. It was AWESOME!! That too I'll upload pictures

I've Been Massive Attacked

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Sleep Deficiency

2010-03-29T04:26:00.002+08:00

Can't sleep therefore my mind begins to think of all kinds of things, it's getting darker and darker

It's still there and it's still buzzing

Funny As You Maybe, Nobody Will Know How You Feel Inside, Whether You Are Hurt, Sad Or Happy And You'd Wake Up Everyday Regretting That

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Buzzing Like A Bee

2010-03-28T05:07:00.000+08:00

Funny As You Maybe, Nobody Will Know How You Feel Inside, Whether You Are Hurt, Sad Or Happy And You'd Wake Up Everyday Regretting That

It's buzzing in my head like an angry bee. It's sad and it's pathetic, I'm upset and I can't do anything about it.

Somewhat feels parts of my life is in ruins

Love Life - Ruins
Friendship - Ruins
Education - Still Alive

I wish I actually have a good friend which I can talk to right now. Unfortunately, I don't

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Owh Baby, Baby!

2010-03-28T03:43:00.002+08:00

Was blog hopping just now and I realised most bloggers are REAL narcissist or have bad English.

For the narcissistic bloggers they go to the point to make their picture the header picture. PUH-LEASE! First thing you see when you click on their link...

Their ugly face

I mean DAYUM!! Attention seeking or what?

And then there is that very the not so good English. I is thinking that I scratch head to me thinking what is they try to saying. THE WHAT HELL!!

These insults were not directed to anyone in specific. If you feel like you have been insulted go cry yourself a river.

Some people really tick me off. After they piss me off they actually have the bloody nerve to come and ask me

What's wrong with you?

Example, K & D.

K asked me to pick him up from his house since it was raining. I said okay and I'll be there in 5 minutes. This dumb ass didnt want to wait and instead started to walk in the fucking rain. And then expect me to just open my door for him. I dont want to get my car wet. I told him. Because there will be a damp smell in the car and is hard to get rid of.

But this moron replied

Relek lah

His usual reply. I should have just put the car in "R" and drove off. But I didn't I let him in. (I'm softening up).

D on the other hand wanted to go for lunch. When I call him he said it's canceled, let's have dinner instead. No problem. Devi's he said but I said Kismat for it has better shisha.

Cannot la, my aunt thinks I'm around Devi's so I gotta stay around there

He says. I told this to Mark and he was surprised that he actually listens to his aunt. This moron comes late and I lost my mood. K & D were making a scene as usual and I just wanted to leave.

Where else can i say this? I needed to let it out. So I say it here. If I approach them the most probable answer I'd get is

Relek lah

This group of people, REALLY REALLY pissed me off.
1. As group mates, you'd expect to be called if there is work to be done like a video
2. YOU DONT FUCKING TELL ONE DAY BEFORE THE ASSIGNMENT IS DUE THAT THERE CAN ONLY BE 4 PEOPLE NOT 5!

What could I do? Can't kick the others coz these idiots did the work by themselves. Hence, leaving me alone and trying to finish an assignment in less than one day.

THANKS GUYS! MEANS A LOT!

It's not the first time you people have done it and sure as hell not the last time you people will do it.

In my 19 years alive all I want is a dark corner to just sit at and be alone. That way I won't be hurt and taken for granted.

Funny As You Maybe, Nobody Will Know How You Feel Inside, Whether You Are Hurt, Sad Or Happy And You'd Wake Up Everyday Regretting That

-A Friend Of Mine

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Painkillers & Suicides

2010-03-17T00:16:00.004+08:00

I wish there were painkillers for this, just take it all away. The pain, the misery and that dark cloud above my head.

My neck hurts and I'm not too sure why. Painkillers for that too
Everlasting pain in the knee, Vicodin maybe?

Emo la you Navin!

Remon once said that playing the guitar makes you forget about everything, big or small. That's the one thing I love about the guitar. Currently attempting to play Radiohead's No Surprises

Last F&B practical class. Not sure if I'm happy or sad. I' just felt really really tired. Lack of sleep or something.

Two more weeks. Two more weeks of class then its exams. Not to say I'm looking forward to the exams but its after the exams. A week break if I'm not mistaken, I think I just want to sleep. Tired as hell.

Khalilul showed me this and I was like whoa, the song really suited it and this made me want to download the whole of season 6.

Everything You Know About Me Now Baby You Gonna Have To Change
You Goin To Call It By A Brand New Name
Please Please Please Don't Drag Me
Please Please Please Don't Drag Me
Please Please Please Don't Drag Me Down

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

Light & Magic

2010-03-16T00:00:00.004+08:00

F&B wine class today, Mr. Anshul made us try both red & white wine. Shiraz & Chardonnay respectively. Had the Chardonnay first and it wasn't bad, surprisingly it tasted better than usual white wine which I've consumed before.

When it came to the Shiraz, I wasn't in the mood anymore. I was like "ERGH"

Sad part?

I love red wine. But I guess having rice and prawn sambal for lunch was a step too far. But everyone still gave me theirs JUST BECAUSE I'M INDIAN!! Pfftt... didn't finish it. It wasn't worth it and I was driving home. I don't plan on getting drunk for a long time.

So after class met Aswine and Gabrielle. Gabe is somehow the guy version of me, she eats like there is no tomorrow, she loves Arsenal and she likes Robin van Persie.

Where have you been all my life?
Eating
...

Gabe, Me

I'm going through some music revolution or something. I'm in a really music mood. I need music with me and lately with the guitar craze its nothing but Jack Johnson that keeps me going.

Born in Hawaii, therefore he has that chilling songs in his blood

So as to surfing

Yes the same guy who sang Upside Down for the movie Curious George, that cute ass monkey. A must watch movie, age is not the matter

Jack, you so awesome that you should come to Malaysia and perform

Left On The Lights, Is There Somebody Home, Light And Magic
You Cut Your Hair And Made A Friend, Now They're Falling Into You
This Is The Closest That You Will Get To Them, How Do You Do?
You Left On The Lights, Is There Somebody Home?

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

One Hell Of A Spontaneous Weekend

2010-03-14T23:34:00.007+08:00

This Is Mandy The Duck

All Edible Animals Have The Good Life After They Are Dead, All Expense Paid Spa Treatment, Or As I Like Calling It, FINGERING CHICKEN/DUCK!

We had public speaking on Friday. A continuation of Thursday, for the people who didn't do it yet. I spoke on music like how I've written about it in a previous post. Thing is it made me sound like I have some illness and I would die without music. I don't think people would understand what I mean.

Everyone was sensitive, lots of tears shed and I can't say I shed a tear. I haven't been able to cry since Annae's death. My emotions are somewhat dead. In some way we got to know each other better.

After all that....

Jason Mraz paid us a visit

DH34 G1,2's Jason Mraz to be exact

It was an awesome day. Really enjoyed ourselves with futsal and chilled at the student life centre with the guitars. What else do you expect us to do huh? It was really cool how all of us were just jamming. We plan to make it a Friday thing.

Random Thought:
Girl In Fire Reminds Me Of Term 1, Business In Hospitality And Tourism Presentation

The Sewers Belch Me Up
The Heavens Spit Me Out
From Ethers Tragic I Am Born Again
And Now I'm With You Now
Inside Your World Of Wow
To Move In Desires Made Of Deadly Pretends
Till The End Times Begin

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

I'm Going To The Gatsby Deodorant Street Fair

2010-03-14T03:44:00.002+08:00

Seriously, what would we be without deodorant? We'd be like smelly people who can't hit on girls. Heck I still can't hit on girls.

Why am I talking about body care products?

BECAUSE MOST OF YOU PEOPLE SMELL BAD!
I CAN SMELL YOUR TRACES WHEN YOU READ THIS BLOG!!

No lah I'm kidding, Gatsby is having a Deodorant Street Fair at Times Square.

Okay before you guys imagine a fair just full of deodorant, lemme give you a fair picture of what it's gonna be. There's gonna be games and prizes

WHAT KIND OF GAMES?!

Well there is Sumo Wrestling (best for skinny people cause you'd be wearing an air bag suit, you can feel fat!), gladiator battles and other addictive games you'd expect at a fun fair. Sorry, guys no kissing booth.

ARE THERE PRIZES?

Other than that, what fun fair would be a fun fair without a lucky draw, huh? Not sure but I think there are cool prizes up for grabs but not sure if it's part of the lucky draw. Only way to find out it so go there *hint*hint*

WHERE & WHEN?

Date: 17th April 2010
Time: 10am till 5pm
Venue: Front Foyer, Ground Floor, Berjaya Times Square, Kuala Lumpur.

EH, I STILL GOT QUESTIONS!

I malas wanna layan already,
For more info go to www.gatsby.com.my/streetfair

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up

That's Different

2010-03-11T22:29:00.002+08:00

This Song Is Now Officially Stuck In My Head

So our PA event is over and I'm glad that's over with. Won't have to put up with that lecturer anymore. In my opinion it went quite well, we just lacked the number of people who attended the forum.

The speakers were awesome, Mr. Melvin (Isabell's dad) was really cool, I mean all the last minute-ness from me and stuff and even with that he still came.

Mr. Calvin Seow, Wayne's speaker and uncle. He was the sporting one and he made the whole lecture theater somewhat lively.

Mr. Andrew Carlyle, Nancy's speaker. He did have some interesting facts but I guess he didn't have much to say because the other two speakers said it for him.

Even was great but I didn't like the way how our group was. I mean, just suck it up for one day and do as you are told. Heck it's only for 2 hours. What they did to Venice wasn't nice. She didn't hear anything and missed out on the lecture. She sounded disappointed. I feel like I let her down. I should have got some other people to help out, out side. What happened to the Welcoming and Promotion team?

They were oogling Mr. Andrew. I don't have to say who. You people figure it out. I'm sick of all of it.

During English class we had our second part to our public speaking and our topics we are given to choose from?

The Day I Lost It
The Most Important Thing/Person
The Most Embarrassing Thing In My Life

I had trouble picking a topic. I'm not sure what I've lost that I want to talk about, my whole life is embarrassing and I don't think there was an important figure in my life. Something I realised, other than this blog I rarely open up about my life to people.

Well I don't want to talk about everyone who spoke but I just want to highlight one person, Remon, I'd rather not say what he was talking about because it's a tad bit sensitive. But that one line he said, it made me realise that it's the first time I'm hearing it. I haven't heard that line before.

My Best Friend, Navin

My friends before this have never used it. I didn't know what to say, I was some how honored.

But public speaking today had a very dark note to it. Everyone who went up was either in tears or about to be in tears. Again something I haven't done in a long time. It's been 3 years if I'm not mistaken.

So Don't Let The World Bring You Down,
Not Everyone Here Is That Fucked Up And Cold,
Remember Why You Came And While You're Alive,
Experience The Warmth Before You Grow Old

These are my thoughts and views. If it really offends you, either you are a pushover or just a freaking baby, grow up